vivacious :)

2007-05-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

太陽の歌　is ♥!!!

2007-05-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

could you speak up and stop mu-mumbling, I don't think you came in clear > give it to me

man i love this song :) it makes me happy cos it has such an upbeat tempo. heh :D

ahhh the stress and pressure is on. i dont think i can keep up anymore. i'm so tired. when did life ever gotten so tough? sometimes i wish i could just go back to secondary school when everyday was an enjoyable and happy one. nowadays, everything seem to be thrown onto you and you're expected not to crumble under the pressure because you're EXPECTED to, because you're not SUPPOSED to. ahh expectations. this word is so deafening at times.

competition's next week and i'm barely there. i dont want to sabotage myself and the school. but what if i just get so tense i forget everything and like just flop on the spot. i feel like withdrawing this minute, i feel like just giving up, i dont want to embarrass myself. imagine all eyes on you watching you flop. gahh. scary thought.

i wish for a better week ahead. gah.

2007-05-03T23:21:00.001+08:00

check out the4/7 2006 class blog! got notice!

2007-04-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

it's all about homework, work and even more work! when will this cycle ever end?

i'm looking forward to the holidays. it'd be a sweet escape to get away :)

2007-04-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

2 minutes off before i continue my last essay of the night.

omg. the workload i'm being given today is crazy. suddenly everything seems to be due tmr. every teacher wants to use the "long" weekend (of only 1 more pathetic day) to mark more stuffs, so everything is due tmr!! lessons and tutorials that will not be done on friday brought forward to these few days, add more stacks of work to the already piled up ones. tests that could have been next week brought forward to this week just because of one holiday. rah!

my only motivating force now is the thought that tmr evening will be a more relaxed one because the most taxing jobs are done and the remaining ones are rather mild.

oh wells. writer's block please go away! you're hindering my doing of my PW! PW = serious waste of time. SERIOUSLY. rah!

wheeeeeee

2007-04-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

ahhh now that i can finally see my blog! i'll do a short update before i do
my chinese hw!

school's been great! i'm totally loving CJC! even though the stress of JC
life can get quite overwhelming sometimes, i'm enjoying myself loads with
all the great company around me! there's 1T01 which i'm very proud to be
part of, we're going to be spending a good 2 years together, stressing and
chionging our way till the end of A's! friends are really a big part of your
life in the school and social context i guess.

March was a really hectic month for me i'd say. appealing to schools,
settling in to CJC for good, mixing around with 2nd intakers and bidding
good bye to my dear IG mates from 1st intake. lots of emotional turmoil i'd
say. i totally miss IG9 (1st intake), those people were the first few that i
started out this jc life together with and less than half of them are left
in CJ or even a JC. oh wells, luckily there's still this thing called the
internet and the telephone.

am missing IJ real much! especially after going back to sch for thanksgiving
mass. last year 4/7 2006 was planning one for the seniors and this year we
are attending the ones our juniors planned for us. feels weird to be an
alumni now, but i'm pretty sure it's IJ for life for everyone present that
day. IJ has made such an impact in my life, it'll definitely be a special
part of me forever. the classes, friends and bonds forged in the school, be
it pri or sec sch, will be something i will never forget! i'm already
missing the people i always see everyday, teachers and friends included.

speaking of school, attended CJ's band concert last night. CON FUOCOV V WAS
FANTASTIC! never knew that CJ had such a good band to boast of. it was
really good. went with see kei, wan yu and tiffanie. sat at like the 3rd row
so that we could really "feel the intensity of the music". heh rightttt. but
it was really great! would definitely attend it next year! currently am
looking forward to the drama production, mid summer night's dream. hoho all
3 of them are like in drama, so i guess i should be going to lend my
support!

anyway, am really glad that Ivena's coming back this friday! you're missed
very very much ivena! will be looking forward to catching her! i should
really be going back to my work now! till next time!






hello. this is nat hijacking carmen's blog. :)

2007-03-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

i cant see my blog at all!

2007-02-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

may everyone be blessed with good health and good fortune this year! and for students like me, more intelligence and have fun in the new year! :D

2007-02-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

oh woe is us valentineless people. BUT NVM. tmr's valentine will somewhat be very ironical yet special and significant maybe??

i cant believe how time has passed. CSIJ's sending Ivena off to Aus tmr, so anyone who wants to see her for the last time cos we all dunno when she's coming back, do come down to the airport tmr la! then call one of us or something. i feel so sad! i don't like to go through this parting thing though it's something that happens in life quite commonly. and the best of all things, she has to leave tmr -_-;; of all days, tmr! gahhhhh.. ivena ah ivena..

anyway yea. submitted my JAE thing like way earlier than expected. but oh wells. i think i'm like 99% going to get in. i just hope to see more of my sec sch friends in CJ after 2nd intake! school's so weird without these people. anyway, good luck to all those applying too! happy early v day too! :)

2007-01-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

and again, it's Sunday. i dont really like sundays because it simply means that i have a few hours left to complete my tutorials/homework and the next day is a monday. both ways i dont really like. cant the weekends be longer or something so that we can really rest once a week?! gahhh

the weather is damn hiong la. at this rate, CJ's dri-fit shirt will never dry in 2 hours! and omg. judo yesterday was all about throwing and falling. my whole body's aching like mad now. i wonder how i'll survive PE this week.

have been hearing that results will be out like on the 5feb-9feb that whole week, either one of those days. i'd rather get back everything soon rather than keep keeping yourself in suspense.

anyway, i'm still waiting for ivena and joyce to send me photos! lalala.
i shall go back to work soon. :(

2007-01-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO I'M NATALIE AND I'M INVADING CARMEN'S BLOG. HOHOHO. IN YOUR FACE CARMEN! Nono, I still love you dear. ♥

today's post better be posted up...

ok anyway school was very blahhhh today.. well school's blahhhhh everyday.. anyway the point of today's SPECIAL entry is that it's a VERY VERY OFFICIAL CSIJ MEETING! well plus jac wong and wan yu too! we've never really had a official CSIJ outings before cos people are always absent but today everyone was there! man i really miss them! havent been seeing everyone since december and ya, just missed them so much. missed my IJ days too! i miss IJ la! mannnnnn how much i miss these people!!! they're like the people who made my sec 3 and 4 life so interesting, they were the people who made a difference in my life and aiyah list goes on and on.. no matter where we are next time, i do hope that we still can keep close contact and meet up as often as possible!

so anyway, today's meeting was a very very impromptu birthday celebration for cecilia.. there goes our 18 tiny presents project cos it was so last minute that we decided to meet today.. in the end just got her this new york cheesecake from crystal jade.. surprisingly besides dim sums and all, their cake also not bad!

so we went to seoul garden then talked and joke and laughed like mad.. i think we all got scalded by the oil thing la.. seoul garden is a damn fun place to eat at! with the right people of course.. and anyway, it was my FIRST time going to seoul garden to eat and i must say i quite enjoyed myself there! so after we were done, collaborated with the staff so that we can "surprise" cecilia, but i think she suspected earlier already la.. aiyah not fun one leh that cecilia! then after that it was major photo taking session.. felt like grad night but just that it's not Hyatt and we're not in our gowns and make up and all, just in plain uniform or shirt and jeans!

then walked to cine and i finally bought that bag i've been eyeing on for months because i got a feeling that my current bag will give way anytime cos there's a hole at the bottom of the bag already.. plus i've been using it since sec 1, time for a new change man! then went to heeren and etc then left already.. saw xiaxue and her boyfriend and jamie yeo and some other girl (the other girls out loud host) at some weird biotherm showcase.. then i went back already.. am waiting for all the photos to be sent to me!! so people hurry send to me!

hmm shall do a small dedication to my darling CSIJians! (i do hope u guys read this! and it's in CSIJ order)

cecilia: hmm, i'll never forget that ducky voice of yours and that many times when we punched each other till we get blue blacks on our arms. till now, i still dont know what's with us and our punching spree! hahaha. but oh wells, i'll definitely be missing you lots when you fly to don't know where for further studies! update your blog often and contact us as much as you can! thank you for introducing me to all the Korean and Japanese media and all the things u did for me la!

see kei: you are one big bimbotic sotong!! how can anyone be as blur as you (well ok except your senior) but we better be meeting up more often and you better come to CJ soon! you practically know me inside out and you're like one of the best listening ears i've ever found, thank you for being ALWAYS THERE, though not always contactable! I, and i think you also, will probably never forgot that irritating "training" i've given you since sec 1! haha i think it's coming in handy now! heh. thanks see kei for everything la! and go and revive your blog soon!

sarah: sarah is the sotong senior! sarah's so approachable and understanding and also the sickest of all sick even though she looks so blur and innocent! heh, i'll miss you sarah! what are you doing in YJC!?! i hope u have fun there and remember to keep in contact with us!

ivena: ivena is the crappiest geog partner! thank you for all that you've done for me and errr for always teasing me ah! hahaha, in the end i still outwit you somehow! harhar. you make recesses in class so fun when we just talk crap about so and so and gossip about so and so and just laugh like mad! i miss our recess days at 1R05! and you're also leaving for aussie soon.. what happened to ur interior design course, how come u ended up in law!! do come back and visit us during holidays and i'll try to send u off on valentine's, ahhh the irony of sending u off on VALENTINE'S! you also must update ur blog more often la ok! and send more xmas cards ok!

joyce: ahhh joyce the one who uses horse shampoo! hahaha, thanks for being a great leader for the class and one of the most reliable and dependable person around! thank you for always sharing whatever you have and being so tolerable with everything that's been going on! i hope we'll get into the same school or something la.. we shall go little india more often to find you! and and thanks for being so enthu about CSIJ! i think you started CSIJ right? one of you back row people la.. it's great that we have CSIJ now cos i think it's going to bind us together forever!

ahhh I LOVE CSIJ! things will never be the same without them! we should have a trademark or so for us!

2007-01-21T19:01:00.000+08:00

okok seems that i'm able to blog now.. might as well blog some more..

JC life is stress beyond stress.. the tutorials that we have to complete is omg so many.. which reminds me that I HAVE YET TO FINISH MY WORK! i barely finished some chinese hw of mine.. i hate chinese lit.. it's just bahhhhh.. so dry.. and the text is like written in the chinese people use in those good old ancient days.. so yea.. anyway, i need to seek consultation soon! i better clarify everything i dunno asap before i die and collapse when more info is given to me..

speaking of JC, PE IS TEDIOUS!! and there's PE again tmr when i just had one on fri.. i hope it wouldn't be as tough.. cos i think i'll just die flat after that.. the weekends are like so damn bloody short.. it's already SUNDAY EVENING! gosh..

not really looking forward to school.. it's gonna be another hectic week. i hate to admit i miss orientation and is still in that mood.. I NEED TO SETTLE DOWNNNNNN..

and ok nvm.. it's obvious that my thoughts are very disjointed and very messy.. shall update again later or something.. blah!

2007-01-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

ok.. blogger really cut me off.. damn la..

O's results are like coming out! that's like very fast la.. the O level seems to be something that just happened a week ago or so, and now the papers (which flew to UK) are already back in singapore. gah.. i'm only looking forward to meeting up with my classmates on the results collection day cos the class dinner has been canceled :( oh wells.

and yay cecilia's coming back tmr! hopefully we can have a CSIJ outing soon! we only had like 1 or 2 really complete outing, it's always CSI or CSJ or something la, always incomplete.. i'm missing IJ like mad, missing the familiar faces i always see in school, missing the teachers, missing that all girl's environment, missing ARC like mad, missing ahh everything around me! i want to go back to the past!

hmm.. anyway, i do hope that 07 will be a good year! and i see a lot of new things/experiences etc coming my way.. hopefully good la.. yeaps.. will update again soon!

2007-01-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

ahh havent been blogging in a long time. it's really sickening to blog these days cos blogger's connection is NOT STABLE! it's like u typed a whole long post and u cant post it up, which is chao annoying.. i typed one a few weeks back and it didnt post so i couldn't be bothered to blog already, after all i've been busy these few weeks!

i'm loving CJC! i love the similar environment and that homely feeling. it's not exactly the same as IJ but i guess u can still sense the similarity around. i love my IG 9! IG 9 is a whole bunch of fantastic people! meeting up with grace kee who used to be in ijtp pri, and yohanna (though not in my IG) who was in the same pri class as me! and ya, CJ loves to play with mud.. orientation was like that, judo orientation was also like that. they like to get people very very very dirty.. and whether rain or shine, every activity still continues! that's like ok la fantastic! love the mood they have! [posting first lest blogger cuts me off again]

2006-12-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

so ya, yesterday i went to PP to support my juniors for FLL. i was so disturbed by what was happening there. the place was pretty messy and it being held in the middle of a shopping mall was not helping at all. shoppers were moving in and out, i doubt the competitors could have compete in peace. then after that, before the award ceremony, there was something appreciation for the VIP. and omg, of all things, it had to be a ballet performance!! i'm not against ballet, neither am i against the ballet dancers or the ballet dance itself, dont you think it was just odd to have a ballerina dancing in the middle of a ROBOTICS competition???? if dance was to bring up the atmosphere of the surrounding, the how come it's not some robots dancing or robotic dance?? i mean, the relativity is closer and more appropriate wad...
then i heard that NJRC may be canceled (like omg wth is wrong now?) and FRS is MAYBE going to be pushed back to sept if NJRC was canceled. wah piang, god bless my juniors man. NJRC being canceled is understandable cos of the new NXC and all, but the robotics scene here in singapore is shrinking so fast, well that is if there's more overseas competition with local students representing in it la. but omg. pretty much shocking.
yahhhhhh. but ya, whatever happens i just hope ARC will survive all odds and ya strive in all things they do :D
hoho okok.
then after that, tvfxqforever forum is like down again!! that's like happening pretty often and yesterday the a part of the forum disappeared. but oh wells they are going to change servers. and omg, the forum will be done, and that means, being online is going to be damn different and very boring!
today's weather is very good!! haha windy and sunny! feel like going cycling but my partner aka phoenix is out of singapore again!!! should drag her to cycle with me when she's back! and sudoku too is like damn fun! kills time! kills your braincells in the process also! rahhh.
anyway, i'm like spouting random rubbish cos i got nothing better to do at home! omg big sobs la! need to go out soon! i'm losing my screws and nuts (ok whatever) the longer i stay at home so ya. ohh 14th is coming too! haha ok that's all!

2006-12-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

ahhh the holidays has been boring! there's nothing much to do with mostly everyone around me being out of singapore... yeaa.. and erm it's pretty fast now that it already is december.. very soon January would come and that would mark a new school year for me! then the whole cycle would repeat itself again.

anyway, because i've got almost nothing to do at home, i went to re-watch the whole one litre of tears episode again.. omg.. even though it's my second time watching, i still cried cos it's so touching and sad!! people who are chao bored should go watch it and spread the morals it is trying to tell.

yup! anyway going for FLL tmr! feels really out of touch with the robotics scene ever since FRS ended! hmm yea.. and and haw par villa outing soon! omg cant wait to visit that interesting place again! haha yea that's about it then!

2006-11-28T11:08:00.001+08:00

~~testing testing!~~

ok lor this is damn weird, it doesnt allow me to copy and paste yesterday's unpublished post over.. so i have to retype lor.. :(

anyway, i was saying that i'm really glad to say that O's are finally over and i miraculously survived till the end of the whole year. ha, the routine of going for exams then studying then going for exam stopped on 20th nov (aka phoenix's birthday also), took me some time to tell myself that "hey! exams are already over! study some more for what!!" haha so ya, pretty taken aback that time flew by me so quickly.

then on the 21st went back to school for PAE. choosing a JC is like rah disaster la. i dont know what i want and where i wanna end up so ya. but i still made my choices asap cos there's a deadline if not, when 3rd jan 07 comes, i think i'll go back to IJTP instead. harhar. ok so ya, then yesterday went back to sch for ARC camp BBQ, then spoke to MET about the JC choices thingy, and omg, i felt so troubled after that, totally like regretted my choices, well esp my first choice. ahhhhhh. feel so dead. ok nvm, if i do well enough, i'll go somewhere!

haha ya, so after that came graduation night! firstly, thank you phoenix for doing my nails! haha simple and nice :D photos have yet to be uploaded cos BOTH the camera and cable are at my mum's office. rahhh. anyway ya, i moved to table 9 to join cecilia and sarah. my table had no CSIJ fella x( but i loved table 9! we also had vanesa, mabel, gwen, charlene, eunice, sheryl and audrey! yeaa had fun but WE DID NOT TAKE A TABLE PIC!! ahh how sad! ~~[posting first to prevent blogspot from cutting me off]~~

oh yea the food was alright man! just that it felt as though Hyatt was trying to trick us.. cos the food looked like shark fins and abalone, but when u eat it u know it's not.. haha ya.. everyone looked so glam la! somehow it's true that ALL females will look good with extra effort :D yaa i loved my hair! so shimmery and glittery, i bet i'll go there again for styling if i ever need. i didnt like the makeup my mum did la, kept making me feel hideous. yaa.. but i lived with it till the end la so it's ok!

after the dinner and all, it was massive taking pictures with everyone and anyone. i didn't get to watch the class vid thing! omg someone send it to me soon! then after the whole thing ended, went to watch happy feet with emily, brenda and see kei. happy feet is such a stupid show la, damn boring, wasted my money only. maybe because i was tired, but the plot was so damn long and draggy. so after that, see kei came over to my house to sleepover, and man, she was taking ages to remove the contacts from her eyes! haha but ok la, at least it was out in the end.
ya so as prom has ended, it officially marks the end of my secondary school life. my my, i've been an IJ girl for TEN years already. time really flies and i've learned a lot from being in this school. from pri sch to sec sch, i've been educated to be a true blue IJ girl and i'm very proud of it! it feels weird now that i will not be saying i'm from IJTP but from so and so JC. it feels even odd to even refer to IJ as my alma mater and now i'm the alumni of the school. ahh, guess i'll have to start adjusting myself. but seriously i cant bear living my sch! i'm seriously going to miss it like crazy la esp 4/7!. ten years from now, we should have a class gathering soon or something. i've had fun being in 3/7 and 4/7, our class is like filled with loving and caring people who are always concerned about each other, not kpoh la, but really true genuine concern. ahh what a great class la, i love 4/7! we should make some banner thing then put at our blogs. xD
oh yea so last night, went back to school for arc camp BBQ! totally missed my juniors. they were all like gathering around 4 tables. then when they saw me, they just had to scream barney! wah piang!! but ok la nvm i still love them a lot! haha so it was eating and playing and talking! played the stupid chubby bunny thing with emily, felt so stupid la cos i kept laughing, but it was damn funny xDD yeaps, then after that was just talking amongst ourselves. i dunno how come, but mr tang joined in, and omg he was like talking for like 2 hours or so about how to lose weight, effective and safe and TESTED methods. LOL was damn interesting la, it even drew a crowd at our table. yeaa. then after that they wanted to play basketball, but then it started raining. and omg, ODAC girls actually can go for night cycling, like omg damn cool la! i also wanna go! hopefully ARC can plan one too! it'd be damn fun! :DD then after talked to mr tan etc etc and i went home!

ok that's about it. i'm looking forward to CSIJ (minus cecilia and sarah) outing! haha it's so sad we only had ONE official CSIJ outing. okok that's all! sarah will post the entry for me cos blogspot is being an idiot again x)

(yes and carmen isn't as straight as i thought she would be. heh. just kidding <3>

2006-11-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

oh yea!!! i'm in the middle of O's! haha the worse of the worse papers are over.. so what's left is Accounts, History, Science and Geog MCQ THEN OMG O'S ARE OVER!! i cant wait to finally post the message that the dreaded O's are over, seriously, CANNOT WAIT AH!

yea yea.. i feel like i'm going crazy any minute cos of the rising tension and excitement that O's are going to be over any moment. haha.. i really hope i can get my single digit! yea so far so good except for that cursed subj which i dont even intend to count it in.. other than that.. it's really so far so good.. yeaps! there's an announcement that MOE has changed the timing for papers that take place on the 16 and 17.. so yea we're affected! omg, i wonder what big news is it, O's timing can change one..

anyway, i cant wait for O's to be over.. i want to go online everyday without feeling the slight tinge of guilt rising in me, watch Xman everyday on youtube and hop around k pop forums to forums.. and watch HK and korean dramas like siao and and AHH I ALSO DONT KNOW WHAT I'D DO when O's are over! ok probably settle PAE and grad night first.. haha.. ok so there's something for me to do :)

haha ok la, till then, I'LL HAVE TO START ON ACCOUNTS AND HISTORY SOON! ok GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!

2006-10-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

screams!!! THE O'S ARE COMING!! yea yea i know the reminder is a no need but zomg.. less than a week's time and what the hell am i doing here, online and on my blog! zomggggg.. cannot take it..

it's ok.. i can survive.. THE END IS NEAR!!!!!!!! OMGG reminder! THE END IS NEAR! haha i think i am indeed going a bit mad.. i cannot take this tension.. it's just maddening..

anyway yea.. i will come back here after my paper ends which is on the 20th 9am!.. ok anticipation begins RIGHT AWAYYYYYY..

bye bye! and good luck everyone who happens to chance about :D

2006-10-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

ahh prac exam today was good!! ohh, i feel so happy! cos it's first time i ever felt so confident and relaxed after the prac exam. hoho, -smiles in BIG delight!- =D heh, hopefully i can really do well, cos it really helps to pull up the total by a big mark. yeaa.

rahh, i just had an encounter on the phone. this guy called my house and apparently he called the wrong number, so when i told him "i'm sorry, but i think you've got the wrong number.", HE JUST SLAMMED DOWN THE PHONE!!! OMGGGGGGG. what's wrong with him!!! i mean just say oh ok, then sorry la, omg you dont just slam down the phone like it's my fault u got the wrong number man!!! kabbish. this one not the first time already. sometimes got some weird accented people call also slam down. -_-;;; that day i was supposed to call wanyu, but i dialled the wrong number, then i was apologising halfway the person slam down the phone!! omg!! what is this?! slam dunk on the phone ah! omg... so rahh this kind of behaviour.. sorry very difficult to say meh..

lalala, anyway, omg lessons again tmr!! i feel so tired cos i didnt sleep enough last night. too excited already.. hahah =D

2006-10-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha 3 posts in a row, cos blogger keeps disconnecting. what's wrong u stupid thing!!

ok anyway full post at LJ!

2006-10-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

ahh i blog two lines it posted, i blog one whole paragraph it didnt post anything! omg -stabs blogspot- ahh i'm going to cut things short lalala.

Jc open houses were okok only.. ones that left impression was only RJ. heard from friends that VJ one was really good too. anyway ya, i felt very homely and at ease at CJ. probably cos of the IJ spirit lingering around. yea so that was good. anyway, i really need some direction man! feel so lost as to where to go for the next 2 years or so.

anyway, prac's on thurs and i better start revising soon! and oh, another 4 weeks more before the end of it all! :D

2006-10-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

ahh blogspot was so annoying!!! always disconnect! seriously, what's wrong with it!!?

2006-10-08T14:14:00.000+08:00

heh havent blogged in a really looooooong time!!

ok yea, O's are barely a month away! i cant believe that i'm reaching the end point already. it's the time when i should start peaking and all, but i feel so tired. i just wish that O's will suddenly disappear and everyone need not take it anymore. muahaha, fat hope!! ahh, anyway it's really time to start revision again cos after all, ever since end of prelims, i havent hit the books. i must improve doubly this time to get a single digit. oohh god, please give me the power to stay focused and determine!! yes yes i can do it.

that aside, yesterday we went to celebrate joyce's birthday and ivena's belated at fish and co! hmm. it was pretty fun, felt really high, and laughed a great deal. i miss being crazy and laughing like mad. it was finally our first official CSIJ outing! yay i love CSIJ lots. we should have more of these. makes a good destressing activity. shall wait for ivena to post teh stupid pictures up, and we can all laugh at ourselves :D

lalala.

2006-09-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

i was watching my TVXQ videos and shows etc then see kei told me she blogged about me! (haha omg me!?!) then i read it and i decided to do some blogging with reference to see kei's entry.

ahaha so we were talking about what would we do if we won the big sweep which is like a sum of S$2 million! (it's from the stomp post) omg big sum of money! haha. so we decided to do lots of stuff. here's what see kei wanted to do:
get a camera, a new phone, a lamborghini, and travel the world and donate to charity (haha she's that kind meh?) AND THE MOST IMPORTANT: "i'll pool my money into researching, create something to make people grow taller with surgery, that will be great!!!" hahaha I LOVE SEE KEI MAN! i love that idea, so i immediately said, remember to allow me to chip in, then together we can make asians taller than the westerners!! haha yay!!!

then i was obviously thrilled with having so much money! but nonetheless, i'd give half to my mummy! and the rest i'll spend and save! harhar!! i'll buy all the stuff i wanna get, go overseas for studying! and learn jap and korean and take up lots of courses like the piano and violin classes and TAKE BACK TAEKWONDO! train for higher levels. because taekwondo is originally from KOREAN, so haha it makes more sense to love it more now!! i'll donate 1000 to 10 organisations and help make people's lives better! then this part is totally gibberish ~~"THEN i'll fly to korea to meet TVXQ, or debut myself as some new teenage artist! XD WAHAHHAHA CELEBRITY MAN"~~ HAHAH PURE DREAM MAN!!! TVXQ can be my senior. hohoho. hurhur.

HEH the joys of having so much money! wahahhaa. but i'll probably die from exhaustion learning so many things at a shot. hurhur. OK BACK TO MY VIDEOS!

2006-09-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

lalalala!!! dunno what's with me and lalala but ya..

Click!

2006-09-16T18:43:00.000+08:00

lalalala

2006-09-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmm this is quite unbelievable but you know our favourite crocodile hunter is dead?? he's was killed by a stingray. like omg wth, all the years he had been hunting crocs, he was fine, then the stingray just came along and killed him! seriously, no wonder they say that life is seriously unpredictable. anyways, can always click here on the article on his death. poor man la. so much for his love for wildlife and he just died. RIP.

2006-09-01T16:23:00.000+08:00

blogger has been so laggy these days! oh god i got so angry i blogged in LJ. rahh. ok. prelims sucks totally. and i really dont dare to hope for more except passes. ok la maybe more cos i really wanna get into a JC! lalala. and i hope the teachers will go lenient on their marking. cos our papers are such crap la.

lalala. anyways, throughout these few days of pure prelim stress, i had HARD GAY and TVXQ to keep me alive. hahaha xD hard gay is this really damn funny japanese actor that's acting gay and goes around Japan playing/helping people with the tasks he's given to do la. then TVXQ [with lots of credits to cecilia (: hoho] is like this super hot cum talented Korean accapella band. hoho. they're such talents at sing and dance! heh, i'm damn set on getting their album on sale. lalala.

anyways, i'm really happy and proud of the junior teams in ARC that made it into final presentation!! hahaha THREE CHEERS FOR YOU GUYS MAN! anyways, just keep the fighting spirit alive and i'm pretty sure you all will succeed. haha WAY TO GO PPL!

2006-08-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldnt be blogging (ah sin of temptation but i need to get this off!) OH GOD YAY SS AND GEOG IS FINALLY DOWN~~~~ haha though i know i'm probably going to flunk it cos there wasnt much that i could write about in the second qns of SEQ. lalala. and SBQ, i probably didnt think deep enough to reach the highest level. oh wells. it's over! shall look forward to the end of geog paper tmr. so screwy. but math was ok i felt, even though it's like people say tricky etc. maybe it's the problem of me not being able to see the hidden tricks of the question again. ahh dammit. this is totally stressing the hell out of me la. i hate the damn prelims. and geog is not looking very cheerful either.

anyways it's been a really hectic period! ahh it's like this week has passed so fast i kind of lost track.

oh gawd, i lead a damn maluating life. on saturday i poked some indian guy's hand thinking that it was a stone pillar till he gave me a very very weird look before i FINALLY realise that all along i was poking his hand. he got so frightened he crossed the road even though the green man havent flashed yet. xD ahaha then met phi and marcus and chin hao at TPC with see kei. rahh. so just talked and all and laugh. seriously, laughing is a very good therapy. then came home and tried so hard to study. really tried. and i'm going to continue trying again later. cos it's after all (the most dreaded word), prelim. the exam that's dependent for your JC admission, or at least the 1st few months. rahh. stupid shit la. make me all stressed up and so dead.

on friday when i was sitting down in the hall waiting for the EL1 paper to commence, i was like thinking "omg, it's the English prelim paper right in front of me, i cannot believe it" lalala. then just did the paper and all. the section 1 was pretty tough, i'm really afraid that i went out of point cos after every paragraph, i feel very stuck and i dont know what i'm writing and i dont know how to carry on. then the stituational writing was such an evil thing in disguise. it looked easy cos we can relate to it really easily, but then there's so much to write, not many finished it, some missed out points, and i screwed my format. omg, this is like English i'm talking about the L1, and it's like on the looks on it, i really hope for a pass and if i can get something above that, it'll be a bonus. then paper 2 came as another difficult one also. hmm, the questions are so damn indirect and it's wasnt a very easy paper.

then after that went home and all, then another suay thing happened again. got me swearing fervently rahhhhhhness. lost my mood for everything, i even lost my appetitie. i was so worried i could have burst into a pool of tears. but thankfully it's been settled, though i have to live with its differences now [haha thank you phi (:] anyway what happened was my phone broke into two then i was so worried my mother would find out, i had to be discreet with my emotions and at the same time hide the condition of my phone. after lunch i literally ran to central and tried to look frantically for a shop that fixes handphones. then we had no choice but to settle for this one that's outside pastamania, omg service was like damn jialat, and the person was saying something (obviously negative) to this other female customer, as though i dont understand hokkien like that. something about me asking for the ridiculous -_-. like hello, isn't this a place where i can service my phone?! then had to pay an exorbitant price to get it fixed. rah if i could i'd have given him a punch, afterall i was in a very bad mood. then while waiting for it to be done, followed phi to mos to meet her friends. then cos all guys ah, then a bit awkward, then thank god we (aka see kei and I) saw guanyu and ana! then i told them the entire story and ya just laugh our time away. haha. then i took ana's mp3 player as hostage so that she can hang around longer to accompany us when guan left. anyway after she left, we hopped tables and went to join phi and fish and co. heh x) anyways, had a fun time meeting these new people. it's fun to meet people, it's even more fun to meet people of the same kind. ohh the laughing is just wonderfully destressing la. haah then we went to collect my phone and ya, it's a bit odd now. it's no longer as smooth and it's really weird la, i guess i have to live with it till the end of may 2008 then i can change a new one. which is like bad bad bad la. then in the night, i was invited unexpectingly to join phi and jian hao and javier in their chats. it was fun i'd say :D but because of javier, i didnt sleep till 1am -_-. waited for my mother to come home then slept cos i was feeling too insecure to sleep. hahahah xD

on thursday also quite suay. i was on my way to mrs tan's house for tuition, then i met with a very unpleasant case on the bus. i remember flagging for the 700 bus from the SJI bus stop and the bus just sped through the bus stop, so of course i ran after it right, then when i boarded the bus, the bus auntie was like "girl ah, next time u want to take bus hor, can you please raise your hand longer and make yourself more obvious? you very small you know, i cannot see you!" then i was like damn pissed already, like hello, the attitude and tone was so damn harsh! so i tried to be nice and was like ok, i'll do that next time. then she continued! "orh you know ah! you very small ok! ......" and she went on and i just moved to the rear of the bus. omg, like wth, ultimate bad service la, i was so angry i took down the plate no. i wasnt the only victim, this other guy boarded the bus and was asking for directions, then also kena. poor thing la.

yaa. so much for the Gems thing and preparing for the IMF thingy. if i was a foreigner i'd probably be very very displeased. i hope no foreigners would experience such crap. otherwise, the reputation would be very much smeared again.

anyways, i'd better start on geog again. sighhhhhhhh rahh i hate the prelims man. and oh yes, to my juniors participating in NJRC 06, good luck to you all ok! work hard and strive for the best! you guys can do it man! endure the stress! and to my dearest 4/7, do study hard too!

2006-08-27T13:55:00.000+08:00

rahh

2006-08-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

ahh feeling damn sick. i've been getting frequent headaches in the noon these days. rahh. oh gawd! prelims are less than 2 weeks away and i feel so cheong cheong suddenly. next wed is like already the last day of sch before prelims!! *screams and runs around like a lunatic* things are like happening so fast! and there's so much hw to do and so much revision to do. i feel upset that fridays come so fast nowadays, cos that means that i have a week less to prepare. oh wells.

i wish i could summon the god of discipline into me. wish wish wish.

anyways, today was a relatively ok day. everyone wasn't in the mood for anything cos today's their EL orals. i hope everyone did well! haha goodaluck! hmm yea, i didnt even feel like disturbing see kei cos she looked so upset and worried. hmm. CHEER UP LA SOTONG! ((: people should laugh more like me, then MAYBE things will seem lighter for them. hahaha. really, no joke :D

while waiting for see kei, was reading a book that ivena lent me called The Devil wears Prada (and ivena exclaims: so god wears gucci!) haha yes anyways, it's a pretty nice book, it's even a motion picture now, so yes, i shall read and not watch the movie so that i can improve my damned English. rahhahah.

oh yes, so when see kei came out, she looked happier and relieved! and we went off to eat with guanyu, and then i went home and my headache came on again. i think it's lack of sleep. i've been watching armed reaction daily cos it's like ending already. yess, i love that show. i'm waiting patiently for part 5 to come out. hopefully nat can get the soundtrack for me!

lalala. oh i have a bad dream last night but shant talk about it here. just pray that it doesnt come true. hehehe. okey! got to ransack my bag for my hw soon. and perhaps start on SS.

2006-08-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

ohh oral today was so damn rahhh. i don't know how to explain the feeling but it was so disturbing. oh god i really pray hard that it would pull down my Eng grades cos it's like L1 and I cant afford to go below a B4. rahh, the troubles of not balancing my languages. i was the second last, and waiting for 2 hours to pass was just plain killer. had a headache in the midst but thank god it only worsened after my oral. rahh. suayness.

and mrs khoo said that next wed is the last day of school before prelims start, which is like omg so fast. i never expected this year to be so fast. it'll be like break next wed then prelims then retreat farewell mass etc then break then O's then YEAR END!? so damn fast. feels quite sad, afterall i've been wearing an IJ uniform since the age of 6, 10 years already. hmm the parting feels so unbearable. I dont want to live yet! so abrupt. lalala.

anyways, main focus now is like PRELIMS! heh, the others talk later. :)

2006-08-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

hello virtual world! my computer's internet connection is finally up! double yayness. :) but i've got a keyboard which is super noisy. ok la, i think it's me, it's not the soft kind. damn noisy.

haha today is D-day! haha, it's been the day that most of us had been waiting for, and it certainly made me lose my sleep (first time). It's no doubt, it's the MT O Level Results day! haha. i lost my sleep and concentration like the day and morning before the release. cos i was basically worrying like mad, and the tension was rising within me as every minute passes by. thank god mrs tang gave us like the remaining 15 min of her lessons to calm, pray etc etc. i think it helped, kinda collected everything you're feeling and just prepare for every scenario that you're about the face. seriously, thank god that no one in 4/7 failed and majority improved and did relatively well! haha CONGRATS to everyone! hahaha then throughout the rest of the day, i guess everyone was feeling pretty relieved that nothing of the worse came out. heh. i'm glad that we've done well as a class. after all, before receiving the results, we worried together. the air of uneasiness was like filling the whole classroom atmoshpere, it's scary. heh. so anyway, a big thanks to all the MT teachers for their guidances over the years!

haha so now it's basically getting geared up for prelims and O's. seriously, how time flies. it's about 2 weeks more. and i'm getting panicky already. haha. good luck everyone! we are going to endure the trying lessons from now on!

2006-07-29T18:37:00.000+08:00

ahh i'm like feeling so suay. i've never felt so sick before. first was the gastric flu topped with fever, then now i'm down with a cold. i wonder if i'll be able to get back to school on monday. then there's a lot of hw too, with the 4 essays and the usual math w/s, what's there to talk about "getting more rest". sigh, damn it's taking its toil on me. i feel so weak. and very useless. rahh.

but then again, i really want to get well soon, i feel very behind time if i had to take a mc for a day or two, cos sg is just so competitive and fast paced. lalaa, and there's so much to complete in this much of time given. screwed up la. i need more time before i can start fitting in everything like a perfect puzzle. i can do more with a little bit more of this.

such a beautiful disaster.

2006-07-22T11:46:00.000+08:00

i wish i have internet connection on my computer. then i can resume my virtual life!! and do my work with music. hahaha. oh wells. using my mother's iBook isnt too bad, but i just cant stand apple. ok la, maybe cos i'm too used to windows already.

school's been so overwhelming, i need a breather. i cant believe that prelims are in about 5 weeks time? and it's like there's so much i'm still unclear about. lalalala. better get down to studying soon. but then again, i cant wait for night study to commence! with all that pressure around, i think i'll be more determined to strive further. heh. hopefully that'll keep me going till the 20th november (where my last paper finally ends) hehehe.

haha the last time i blogged was actually a week ago, but then the damn thing said something weird and it didnt publish my post. hopefully it will this time. pretty random post but ya, i'm feeling so uncertain and hungry. aiyah, i havent eaten anything since i woke up, high time i get hungry. ok randomness. still have to prepare for tuition later. i feel so lazy to travel to town even though i stay nearer to it now. anyways, i miss nat! she just had to go back so fast. but then again, this july is like so busy with orals and listening and extra classes that i cant really take out time to accompany her. sorry nat! hmm yess, looking forward to december. she'll be back, i'll be done with O's and then i can sit down and watch my anime. ohh i miss my anime man!

haha, had racial harmony day celebration yesterday. omg, wearing saree is really TEDIOUS! i salute those indian ladies who can tahan the heat and all so well, and still can carry the saree off in poise! haha but it was fun though, well better than those who came in uniform. hurhurceciliahurhur. yeaps then had math test which was oh so crap, probably wont do as well as the previous cos i'm so tired when i was doing the test. then we went to hdb hub and had a good nice talk. haha. ivena cecilia and see kei are like so fun to talk to. and see kei is just so damn blur, it's hilarious. heh. then i reached home and like met phoenix and just accompanied her around.

lalala ok heh. i'm getting bored. tata!

2006-07-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

hoho havent blogged in a really long time! school's really tedious now. prelims are coming and there's like a lot of hw everyday. yess i've moved. but i dont really fancy moving cos i'm always quarreling/fighting with my mother. it doesnt make sense if i say i'm staying at home cos it seriously doesnt feel like one. yes whatever, i'm like a little rebel now. i dont care, i dont put up with unreasonable things, i wont cave in. rahhh. i'll rather sacrifice the distance to have a peaceful surrounding. thank you see kei (:

random facts about me:
carmen is random
loves laughing
loves eating fish
procrastinator!
loves xiao long baos <3

5 things that scare me:
cockcroaches
creepy crawlies
stalkers
ghosts and the supernatural
poverty and hunger

5 random music at the moment:
buttons;pussycat dolls
beautiful disaster;kelly clarkson
that's the way it is;celine dion
one;mary j blige (feat U2)
wu niang;jolin tsai

5 things i say the most:
hurhur
omg
huh
wth
heh heh >D

5 people to do this:
hahaha anyone la!

2006-06-25T18:24:00.000+08:00

i feel so crazy. the june holidays are ENDING! omg. i wish this is barely the end of the first week of holidays. madness. i can never get enough of holidays man.
rahh. reality check: i haven't completed geog, maths, english and science. omg. scary enough. and lim cecilia can still be stressed over not completing MCQs! omg wth la.
this is so not happening, from next week onwards the MT orals are starting. rah. i better get a distinction. if not i can just go murder myself by retaking it. nyeheheh.
rah.. give me some inspiration for some journal entries. oh yess, i hope ms yip is not reading. yaaa, it's pretty scary how teachers are so "active" nowadays. they seem to have ventured into another world just by looking at our entries. heh. that's all. i need to get my hw momemtum back.

2006-06-19T14:13:00.000+08:00

heh havent really been upadating. oh my, it's so sad that this is the final week of the school holidays and i'm not done with my homework. not even halfway through. confirm die one. and it's like every lesson we go to brings us more homework. rahh. enough man. this is crazy la. there's over 10 essays to write. i can go be a writer soon if i acutally managed to write that much. that aside, there's a lot of revision to do, because i know that i've slacken during the midyears, and i have a lot of notes to write on! i hope time will stand still and wait for me to be done with everything before it begins again. harhar. this sure is fat hope.

30 hour famine camp just ended yesterday. haha, at first i had the thought that i may not be able to survive it cos i have a very weird stomach. and yay, i did it! haha. although the last part was the only time i really started to feel hungry because of the rumble in the stomach and that sour feeling when you dont get your food. hoho so i can really last 30 hours and slightly more i guess. i had such an interesting bunch of family members, as in there's like really interesting facts about them. was fun discovering more about each one. without them i probably wouldnt have made it through! they're really interesting people. hurhur, it's been fun with them around. i love my kiowa family! heh :D. i guess this camp was really meaningful and touching. i really liked the fact that folding one paper crane can enable a bowl of rice to be given to a child. that's like a really touching sponsorship act. yea i only folded a few, well because i didnt know how to and they were really ugly at first. BUT i managed to learn how to and i can fold them better now. haha. it's true that singapore is such a blessed country. we have almost everything that anyone out there can long for. there's peace and security, there's no sign of corruption among our leaders, there's a constant supply of GOOD food and clean water. it's so ironic that young girls here are desperately dieting and avoiding food just for the sake of beauty and children out there are dying for food and to be fed. sigh sigh sad state isnt it. when will people actually start cherishing things and be grateful for what they have. time for some good reflection man. this camp has really made me feel and empathise with the poor. i bet it has done a good job in heightening the awareness level among youngsters. may god bless the needy ones out there.

ah i'd better can back to work soon. not much time left for so much to be done.

2006-05-31T20:38:00.000+08:00

ahh yes. the previous post was very long. haha. in my context, i felt that that was the longest ever. hmm ok.

anyway, i got my results already. aggregate 24 points. that's like damn kabbish. i need to work twice as hard to get 12 and twice as hard to get 6 points. HARHAR. that's so impossible but nvm, i will work that amount to get my worth. i'm not disappointed with my results, cos i know deep down i didn't work hard enough to achieve what i'm capable of. sigh, that's me la, i always regret things. i really do not want to disappoint my mother anymore. for all the years that she has invested her money and time on me, and most importantly pinning all her hopes on me cos i'm the only child she has, i feel remorseful and guilty for disappointing her time and time again. her only wish is like to see my go up to university and now it's like, i cant even be sure i can even qualify for a pre-u education. she being a single parent supporting me since young and working half a life out for me, and yet i don't reciprocrate her efforts properly. ahh, i feel such a failure. somehow or another, she constantly tells me that she believes in my abilities and all but it's like, i feel very much otherwise. if not, why is it, despite the hard work that i really put in sometimes, i never successfully get what i want, or at least try to make her feel happier and proud of my achievements. it's like i've been proving her wrong all the time and yet her faith for me is still so strong. sigh for that, sorry mum for all the times i've failed you. i will try and do my best at the end of the year. i'm sorry.

that aside, because of all the things i've been hearing, i'm like contemplating whether i should go for bible studies with see kei tmr. hmm. i dunno. i feel like a storm is happening right now inside me. something is like holding me back. i also don't know what's that but it's a very uncomfortable feeling. yeaps. feel so lost now but nvm. guess it's because there's so much up in my mind right now that i can't sort things out properly. oh god, i cant believe there's such a frail side in me. rah. it's breaking apart.

something on a lighter note, heh today was such a mad day. everyone was late for chem prac and mrs tay was in such a bad mood she sent ppl who were wearing slippers home. yeaa i went there late too, 45 min late. it's like i had to wait for cecilia too hurhur that sotong junior junior, she forgot there was prac today and when i called her to wake her up, she thought i was playing a prank on her. harhar. she refused to believe me that there really is a lesson going on and that i wasnt lying. heh. we had to convince her to come also, that's why see kei and i from late become later. heh heh. yess, and the prac today was so crap. i cannot get the results and even caused the boiling tube to crack. it was a bad day :( but cecilia see kei and i had breakfast later on, and it was a very light hearted one for the first time. cos usually we're like abusing each other. then today, we were like just talking peacefully. hehhehe. oh we made a pact! that's to meet each other ten years from now on, and when we're 60 plus years old, we'll meet again. heh heh. meaningful one. hoho.

life's seriously too short for regrets. i got to learn to do things without anymore remorse.

2006-05-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

oh yay MT O's is DOWN! yesss DOWN. i was pretty nervous and all, couldnt even sleep well last night. and when i saw the questions, i literally blanked out, couldnt think of anything. i hope my compo makes sense haha and luckily paper 2 was easier on us. hmm, i'm still hopeful for a distinction, i'm going to make it happen. NEW IMAGINATION NEW IMAGINATION! YES YES :D that's what i've managed to pick up from cecilia's church the last few weeks. haha. yess. soo i'm going to make it happen through the listening and orals, yeaps. that'll be all for MT :D feeling less stressed. hoohoho.

haha i proclaim my love for C.S.I!!! I LOVE YOU PEOPLE LA! xD haha, it's not the show la, it's cecilia, ivena the naked one (hoho ivena's exposed :D) and see kei(the power sotong)! oohh this people really made my days xD haha X men III (?) got me real high after the show hurhur. time for some good destressing. i want some real cool powers too! see kei wants to stare at chess sets from now on to practice the power of magnetism. heh. go see kei! tell me when you've moved them 0.1cm :D it'll be a great accomplishment harhar x))

tomorrow's the parent teacher dialogue thing. hmm. i hope it all goes well. but i don't think my teachers have anything to complain about me la. not that they're against me or anything, but maybe my results will speak louder or even overpower my teachers' voice in my mother's ear. heh heh.

this holiday, i shall:
rewrite all my messy notes
prepare for prelims by revising and doing TYSes for ALL subjects (T_T)
complete at least one assignment a day

hmm. yes. that'll be a very brief one. today, carmen is a happy child! :D

[edit]

Hello. This is Nat, taking over Carmen's blog for a teeny weeny while. I'm just here to promote the love for kendo. :) The second pic there doesn't really do any justice to the cute Japanese guy in the middle. HAHA. And the hot guys aren't really there. But it's just to show you how fun and friendly kendo sempai are. :) We crap a lot and I swear it helps me get through uni (UNI SUCKS!) and yea... I don't think I can survive without kendo. And the third pic is just my goth sempai who wears a kangaroo tail and who's also in a goth band. Coolness. REMEMBER. If you ever come to MELBOURNE UNI, look for me AND JOIN KENDO. I swear it will be the HIGHLIGHT of your uni life. (The club at NUS there in Singapore has a really strict sensei. SO BEWARE~~!) So YES. And good luck for O's everyone. Don't fret. Just do your best!

Take care y'all! ♥

"-carmen `vivacious" is me
"наталья from kakashi with loff (:" is nat

heh this is nat, from australia, 12 MN there but she's not sleeping cos she's forcing me to upload some random pics she chose of her kendo sempais haha and making publicize kendo! oh my my xD it's ok nat, i still love you anyway! :D

наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OI CAN U hURRY UPLOAD THE PICS
-carmen `vivacious says:
HUH
-carmen `vivacious says:
DONT WANT LA
-carmen `vivacious says:
SO MALU
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OMG HOW CAN
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
ITS NOT EVEN U
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
THATS MALU
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
KAOZ MAN U
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
JUST UPLOAD A FEW LAH
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
just say
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
NAT FORCD ME TO UPLAOD
-carmen `vivacious says:
AHHH SO WEIRD
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
SO I NO CHOIE
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
ha hahahaha
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
just do it
-carmen `vivacious says:
WAHAHHA
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
JUST DO IT DAMMIT
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наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OMG JUST UPLOAD ONE LAH
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
make me happy
-carmen `vivacious says:
nat i give u my pw and id, u upload
-carmen `vivacious says:
hhahaha
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
use imageshack.us
-carmen `vivacious says:
it's so weird!
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
www.imageshack.us
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
got thumbnail option
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
just upload it and it auto thumbnails
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OK LAH
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
I UPLAOD FOR U
-carmen `vivacious says:
HAHHA
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
U JUST PUT IN THE LINK
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OK ?
-carmen `vivacious says:
THIS IS SO WEIRD
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
but wtv i choose u must post
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наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
k done only 3 pics
-carmen `vivacious says:
wah piang
-carmen `vivacious says:
so maluing
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
OI JUST POST LAH DAMMIT
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
make everyone enthu abt kendo can
-carmen `vivacious says:
hahaha u can be the ambassador of kendo international already harhar
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
hahahahha
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
post liao?
-carmen `vivacious says:
noo wait!!
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
k
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
shall be waiting
-carmen `vivacious says:
eh why got 3
-carmen `vivacious says:
links
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
ya all thumbnails
-carmen `vivacious says:
alamak
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
then u click to see bigger pic
-carmen `vivacious says:
so what do i say
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
just copy the link
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dots just say sth
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
NAT FORCED ME
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
JOIN KENDO SHE SAYS
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
A LOT OF HOT GUYS
-carmen `vivacious says:
harhar
-carmen `vivacious says:
wth!
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
or something
-carmen `vivacious says:
ok wait
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
yea hahaha
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
actually i got mroe pretty pics awww
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
u want to see me in kendo armor?
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
oh nvm
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
just post those 3 pics can liao
наталья from kakashi with loff (: says:
donedonedone?
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hahaha so ya the 3 links NAT:

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oh gawd i cannot believe this. harhar. but oh wells, i reckon i'm pretty interested in kendo too la so ya! :D NAT YOU BETTER THANK ME

2006-05-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

ahh. it's the long awaited June holidays. and well, i'm expecting a whole tonne of hw! my file is already filled up with hw for the holidays, and more is coming on tuesday.

bahh. O's MT in less than 3 days! i must get my distinction! yes yes. then i can chuck everything out yes yes. that must be the way. OH COME ON CARMEN! xDD lots of hope that 4/7 CL class can do well together. yes yes. we can!

and of all times, i've got a high fever. like damn it. i'm so going to get well before monday. FEVER SHALL NOT AFFECT MY PERFORMANCE! ohh dammit. but i must be thankful it's not some bird flu or whatever crap. harhar.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! :D

2006-05-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

phone still not back. tmr it'll be back. some crap hardware problem and old sim card screwed my phone up -_-;;; rahh

THAT ASIDE, this week was ok la. receiving back papers was such a tense period. but erm, i need more improvement, in fact a lot more, at least double. ahh, my 8 points. O's MT in about a week's time. bahh. if i don't get a distinction i'll resit. rahh. yes i would. and i better start planning ahead cos i have absolutely no direction of what i want to do exactly after i graduate. rah. i'm rather confused. ha so much for being reflective.

BUT this week was fun! all the laughter in school, the cracky things we do and say. xDDD man i love my CSIJ! and oh! phoenix and i found the puuuurrrrrrrrrrrrfect song for see kei's wedding ;) it's so funny, i teared while laughing. :D

2006-05-14T12:37:00.000+08:00

PHONE SPOILT.
SENT FOR SERVICING.
soo, for the time being don't contact me on my HP until further notice. THANKS
sigh, it sure feels bad without my phone T_T

2006-05-11T11:45:00.000+08:00

oh yay exams are OVER!

HAHA! JOY OH JOY! MID YEARS ARE HISTORY! XDDD

and at this very moment, MY PHONE IS SPOILT! oh god! STUPID STUPID STUPID! of all times?! ALL MY ELECTRONICS DEVICES ARE SPOILT! and they all have the same sympton: sound got problem. oh my god. stupid stupid. first was the mp3 player, THEN my phone with its old problem back again. -_-;;; arghs. NVM, i shall use my auntie's spare phone. rawr.

I WANT TO ENJOY MY 4 DAYS OR SO BEFORE CHINESE INTENSIVE REVISIONS! and all this has to happen. i'm in such a bad dilemma. x(( rahh. i think cecilia wants to kill me. hoho >D

rahh. ok i'm hungry.

2006-05-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

oh god. i had a bad fall. my ear's bleeding. oh screw it. i'm so bloody careless.

bah that aside. ohh weekends! :)) 3 more papers to tackle before i can cast them aside and prepare wholesale for chinese. i want an A1! if i have that, or a distinction, i wont have to bother about it anymore! hoho! i'm sure i can. i can i can i can. yes, I CAN! HA! sounds like some new merchandise i-can. xDDD heh. (think i pod) HOHO. anyway, ya, i should do more of this psychoing then i can be more confident x))

i'm feeling sleepy again. and it's only 1pm. i should be getting ready for tuition. tata!

2006-04-28T19:20:00.000+08:00

hmm. ok. weekends. i'm really getting quite immuned to it cos it's like weekends comes and goes by SO FAST! despite the fact that it's a longer weekend, it goes by very very very fast. i guess, beside catching up on lost sleep, it's the pia-ing period! hahaha there really isnt much time and ya even though i keep re-emphasizing, i never get my way round studying. :( oh pathetic pathetic. lessons have been improving though. haha. i've been absorbing as much as i can. feels very much like a sponge. hopefully my sponge don't dry up :X

bahh. i'm so legthargic.

2006-04-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

what a blast! MT prelims are down and they're most probably going to turn out bad. oh wells. it was tough, the words were almost non existant. i've never seen them anywhere! so much for cheemness haha. oooh then English was pretty. passages which i can relate to usually are easier to comprehend. it was about blogging! haha it's the trend among everyone nowadays. maybe that's why both language exams had topics related to blogging. hmm.

haha. got to prepare for MYs next week :( seriously, i've been feeling so tired these days i keep sleeping. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. free periods sleep, train rides sleep, afternoons sleep. i wonder where i can ever forsake my sleep to do more things. meaningful and worthwhile things.

oh wells! all the best for all those taking their exams soon. we need to cross this hurdle well! and slowly gear up for the BIG 'O's. heh x))

2006-04-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

i shall curb my computer temptations! haha, i just minimise the time spent online and on the computer. haha unless, i have assignments which has to be done online, like the geog one! haha, the geog one is one big killer man. so difficult to search.

bah. exams in 2 weeks time. the mugging craze is back. the last minute-clarify-with-anyone thing is also back. i cant wait for mid years to be over. but then again, i wouldnt be able to relax much after the MYs, cos it's prelims up next -_-;;; pouts. i doubt i'll have enough time to do everything, i buy the papers everyday but have no time to read them before the clock strucks twelve everyday. therefore, i accumulate a big pile of papers and only clear them every sunday. makes me feel very outdated. =( and i actually sit down and do my hw! haha very unusual and weird cos i usually sit in front of the computer and multi task. guess it's not working anymore fo rmy concentration is highly affected. x)

i think my degree is increasing. better check out the optician soon. not looking forward for PRELIMS orals. just cleared listening today. and oh my god, i'm very traumatised at the site link from MOT about this two couples. GAY couples i mean. omgomg.

2006-04-16T16:58:00.000+08:00

Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body

haha hot song :D especially love the way she dances!! omg love!

2006-04-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

bah haven't really been updating. i guess i lost that urge to blog and rant and blah despite the fact that so many things have been happening.

hmm. well, on a lighter note, it's GOOD FRIDAY tmr! haha. seriously, i'm very very glad it's a longer weekend and everyone can take a break and rest. some may go out to let loose, some may choose to stay home and just be under the comfort of your blanket, haha, whatever it is, it's finally a day off. :)

so for that, i originally wanted to stay home, hit the books or just go swim downstairs. haha. but noo, see kei and wanyu had to bug me to go out and play. and my auntie actually said yes to me going out! hahaha. well she said that "i see you so long never go out, then tmr i not cooking, then go lor" then i was like O_O auntie?! haha o wells. so cute la.

i'm tired. i cried myself to sleep last night. and at the same time, i let out a lot of steam that had been bottled up in me. maybe that's why today i was feeling chirpier. x)) even though i was quite moody and quiet. because, this morning, i met a bunch of noisy monkeys on the train. i don't know which school were they from, but i'm 99.999999999999% certain that they annoyed the living daylights out of everyone in that same cabin. i was so tempted to go up and tell them in the most polite way carmen can put it in to SHUT UP! omg, i was already planning lines in my head the moment they boarded the train. had they alighted at toa payoh, i'd have really told them off, thank god they left at bishan and everyone around me HEAVED A SIGH OF RELIEF! omg, i could sense the relief and peace that everyone was enjoying once they left. hahaha, even the auntie sitting next to me awoke once they stepped in. they were playing music from their phone and it's not the soothing kinds, it's the rock noisy type. i was telling see kei, if the whole bunch of them were to stay over at any of their homes, and behave the same way, i'd bet that their parents would come out and tell them off. and she blasted her ipod, and still couldn't hear anything, and see kei has sensitive ear drums. point taken :D

o wells. shall do some hw. :)

2006-04-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

Ripped it from Nat:

Go to Wikipedia and look up your birthday (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year.

Events
1789 - Pope Pius VI appoints Father John Carroll (priest) as the first Catholic bishop in the United States.

1941 - World War II: Soviet leader Joseph Stalin addresses the Soviet Union for only the second time during his three-decade rule. He states that even though 350,000 troops were killed in German attacks so far, that the Germans have lost 4.5 million soldiers (a wild exaggeration) and that Soviet victory was near.

1996 - The family of Eduardo Quihua Maquixtle from Vicente Guerrero, Mexico, including his four children, are stabbed by three men accusing them of witchcraft.

Births
1661 - King Charles II of Spain (d. 1700)

1973 - Nell McAndrew, British model

Death
1406 - Pope Innocent VII

hahaha that's random but very interesting x)

2006-04-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

oooohh and it's monday again! todayy, nothing much. just that i got really tired after a/cs cos i was practically trying to think VERY VERY hard for the test but ermm not much of a difference anyway. i cannot stand my last minute attitude!! bahh. but i dont seem to have the time to accomodate to everything, maybe it's just my lack of discipline. arghs.

today, carmen was a very hungry girl. i am quite glad that despite the fact that i was hungry, i wasnt angry!! hahaha. xDD ok damn lame, but yaa. i controlled my temper. missed recess, didnt eat breakfast, no lunch, no BREAK in between evil tay's prac and PFT. so ya, i guess that's why i didnt do well in this year's test. i wannt RETAKE!! bahh

yess, after that cecilia and see kei and myself were being such retards, laughing widemouthed in the rain and being really stupid in the mrt station. hahah yess. i love the both of them lots la! <3 always make me happy =)) oohh it's such a pity i didnt catch up with phi today after pft..

hmm yess. my MP3's spoilt. dammit. no company on the train anymore. i'll have to splurge on MORE reading materials to keep me company. cos if i fall asleep, i'll OVERsleep and miss my stop. xD yess then when i wake up, i'll feel damn sick. bahh. needa look for a repair shop for such electronics asap! bahh. and my fringe's getting longer, i look so tootish when i clip it up, and oh ya, i'm not trying to look like HER la.. please la KOO WAN YU! i diedie also don't want! i got pretty face (coughcough) OK! hahaha xDD i cant help it that it tickles my eyes and forehead. and brenda and her tickle nose joke is driving me nuts la! xDD hoho, such cute incidences in class. hahaha x))

2006-03-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

oh yay, it's finally friday, somehow, this week seemed to be very very very long. oh wells. i'm glad that it's finally the last day of the week, because i can finally sleep in and REST! omg, i'm so going to fall sick la. with all that sudden headaches etc, i'm bound to fall sick anytime.

yesterday was sports day. hoho. was quite fun la. the morning was even more fun. haha. renfred came to our school and had some interview thing thing. hoho. he's much better looking real life. hmm yes, and he sang and danced and ya sat in between our girls and were hounded by our juniors for autograph and pictures. haha. that's what you get if you're a star i suppose. he's quite shy and probably taken aback by our responsiveness. haha. oh wells. yea after that went for geog lesson and then sports day. i love the rain, it was so cooling! but i almost got struck by the lightning twice (well, not that i'm unfilial or anything), i was standing under a damn tree! and i was crossing an overhead bridge so ya, i was the "tallest" thing around the vicinity. so yes, next time i will just go the long way la. i dont wanna risk it. i'm still young!! x))

today's lessons were very boring very tedious. i really put in much effort to keep awake. hmm. yess. chinese was the best la. destressing period. prelims oral are coming. hmm. yes must prepare. cecilia that beijing duck refuse to let me sleep so kept drawing on me, and coloured my hand gold -_-;;; OH and she saw my palms and said that i'm FRUGAL!! HOHOHOHO! i love cecilia la!! always making me laugh x)) ok la, our childish and primary one kind of squabbles are really very very funny. hoho. never fail to entertain those around us. xD heh.

then went for ARC, we did a really nice revamped. for a long time, i finally felt a tinge of that family that we're always talking about. haven't felt that for a long time, but i personally missed it and am glad to experience it at a cleaning session. haha. supposedly the most dreaded, but it somehow felt more bonding. because everyone is working towards a common goal. haha. the dust and god knows what is so overwhelming!! hahaa. arc rm is like so dirty la! but we'll improve that condition, yes we will :)

oh ya, some twit hacked into MOT's a/c and changed it into some weird ah lian blog. omggg. get a life you bloody shit! MOT's the best la, what kind of stupid ah lian blog is that. arghs, i hope it's an APRILS' FOOL joke. seriously! omg, MOT revive your spirits!!

OOHH AND SASUKE HAS SUCH BEAUTIFUL FEATURES!!! omgggg. i miss him! but he has somehow transformed into a weird freak under that damn orochimaru la. gogo sasu!! the plot's getting interesting x)))

ah hw's such a dread.

2006-03-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

hmm middle of week with lots of unexpected circumstances. i don't know how to control anymore, i don't know how to handle my emotions anymore. everything i've learnt about stress/anger/mood management doesn't seem to come to play effectively because i've overpowered my skills with my abrupt change of moods. to many especially, see kei and phoenix, thank you for being there for me all the time and never failing to make me smile. i love you ppl! haha i think i'll just die without my trio :)

i don't know if it's mood swings or my mental disorder, but i feel as though i've been neglecting the feelings of those around me. i blow hot one minute and blow cold the other. it's really hard to cope with my ever changing moods. yup so sorry about that. i think many feel that i'm getting weirder by the minute and really hard to predict.

today wasn't a very good day. had a very sucky chem test which i'm bound to fail again. subsequently i got back my chinese which was badly done. and then i got so fed up i ~~tore and crushed and threw it away~~. i felt like just withdrawing from O's and not take any exam this year because i'm not the least prepared. yess. i need emotional management courses. haha. then after that, i had a bad headache, i guessed it's because i didnt eat and i felt like puking. yess. bah. then after school, i contemplated attending tuition today because i wasn't feeling very well. so ya, had some food then talked and went home. slept throughout the train ride. perhaps it's tiredness. i'm turning in early tonight i hope.

on a lighter note, no lessons tmr except geog -_-. it's sports day! and some activities earlier in the morning yups. and i think that's all.

it's quite sad that things are so different now. everyone is so tired, so stressed, so worried, so everything. ahh, the exam stress are hitting us already. ADD SOME OIL 4/7ers! haha. i love my class lots. would be sad to learn that we'll be all parting soon. T_T time is flying!

2006-03-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

wahaha. the weekend flew by me!!! oohh my weekend was well. doing hw and going for tuition and school and hanging out with phi at bishan was omg so hilarious! hurhur. then malu-ed myself even more with see kei. omggg. i'm the queen of malu-ism. hurhur. i taught see kei an important lesson! WATER IS VERY VERY SCARCE IN SINGAPORE! hahaha yes seekei??? x)) yeaps. omg, the fun we have is like most of the time embarrassing acts we do. alamak.

school today was OK la. i'll probably miss mr jiow's lesson la, he's super funny, it's kinda sad we have short lessons with nice teachers. see kei was like, why cant he teach us something. i have to agree man! hahaha o wells. yeaps. and erm a/cs was boring for the very first time! i actually almost fell asleep and had to wash my face to keep awake. bahh. possibly cos the topic's dry, bank reconciliation is damnnnn dry. bahh. but erm ya, i must work for A1!

then after school rushed out to 7-11 grabbed something and rushed back for prac. oohh i love electricity! so fun! i love to set up the thing! hurhur. but unfortunately, i suay got a rusty variable resistor and it affected my experiment but it was corrected etc then my graph was managed to hit the points =)))) hehe. then "played" with cecilia and got a bit wet in the drizzle. xDDD yeaps then got home did some work and tada i'm here. hoho

i'm so not looking forward to PFT man. i am not trained up! the worse is the run/walk la. i have a bad stamina! rahhhh. OH YES BEFORE I FORGET! SASUKE IS FINALLY OUT AGAIN (chapter 300) OMG AFTER A YEAR OR MORE!! HE'S FINALLY OUT!! I MISS SASUKE LOTS!!! LOVE!

2006-03-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

ahh i'm so tired. i'm feeling very lackadaisical. i need to get some momemtum to prepare for prelims next month.

bahh. today was a sad and dramatic experience. $600 gone in a few minutes and seconds. to whoever the culprit is, have some conscience, the cash don't belong to you, it's people's parents hard earned cash and to some families, it really doesnt come by easily, some may have skipped recesses just to save for it. it's really unfair. and keeping quiet won't help, at least have the moral courage to admit to a mistake, and everything will come to a close. everyone would definitely forgive and forget! everyone is fallible, we all deserve second chances, so do you. just return it to the rightful owner and ya, your guilt won't haunt.

and i didnt know that teachers really had such a pleasant impression of our class! hahaa. let's all keep it that way! haha x)

oh wells, went for tuition after school, and i felt so demoralised when i was given a NANYANG GIRLS' prelim paper to do T_T i'm not that smart you know, i spent 2 hours doing 15 questions of paper 1 and out of which i didnt know 5!? omg, wth la. ya, then i really couldnt take it, i told my teacher "ahh cannot tahan liao, i'm going home, bye" ya and i left.

got home and tonight, there's this show called never say die airing on channel 8, 8 pm. haha, and it features those rejected contestants from sg idols, superstar contests, star idol, host etc.. yea, and they're courage is no doubt commendable and they were really brave. but isn't it a little embarrassing? didn't they felt they were just sources of entertainment because they were made laughing stocks in front of national tv? bah, but some were just plain thick skinned man. are the people in our country willing to die for fame? one contestant said "i joined cos if i became a star, i'd get discounts when i go shopping" -____-;;; kabbish la. just sign up for the privilege card la! yaa, so they tickled me for an hour and i felt better after that. haha. oh wells, tv shows.

i have this really weird bottled feeling inside me, and i dont know what it is. feels like stress, feels like just emotional tension building up. ahh, whatever it is, i dont feel comfortable =((

2006-03-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

today is term 2 week 1 already! i dread to think that prelims for CL is like next month =((( omg, i'm so NOT ready for it. unless O's is like over this very minute, i'll be constantly freaking myself out that time is running out and exams are LIKE coming. and the best part: i'm not doing ANYTHING about it. omggg. carmen ah carmen!!!! i can literally smash my head against a wall now for contradicting myself so much. bahh.

ok so today is the first day of a new term. doesnt seem like a cheerful day to me when i woke up cos my auntie and uncle seemed like they woke from the wrong side of the bed, and i got a bit of that too. so i just dragged my feet to meet see kei in the train. caught some sleep in the meantime. don't know why also, these few days haven't really been sleeping well. bahh.

then arrived in school and blah and oh, there's a flasher around the lorong 1 estates that has been flashing himself. -__-;;; omg, what is the world turning into these days. haha, sometimes, i wish that the school will send EVERYONE to some martial arts class or taekwondo classes so that everyone learns self defence and ya, OHH or just make it part of the curriculum!! haha, i think that'll be damn cool x))) it'll probably be the lesson i'll look forward to! =DD ok ya, so we were told to be careful. if not for the warning i wouldnt have known something like that is happening around me, cos all i knew of was the vietnamese woman who fell to her death in the vicinity as well. hmm yess, what's with the world these days man.

so we had lessons, today was quite slack. nothing much happened, except that i thought ms yip had a mental problem =x. haha sorry ms yip! my hearing has some defects. actually many heard something similar, just that my infering went overbroad and ya, something weird just came out of it. after school had to rush for prac. ohh i hate hate hate hate to be rushed!! arghs, every week's prac HAVE to be rushed. zomg, today, IS THE WORSE PRAC EVER. i got scalded, broke 2 test tubes in a row, AND I BURNT MY HAIR! omg!?! i'm the clumsiest person around man! omg. the worse was my hair got burnt la. wth wth wth!! now it's like odd. VERY ODD. arghs. THANKFULLY, it's hardly noticeable and hair will grow back right! haha. but the soot from my hair left on my fingers were quite disgusting and erm gross. and ya. christabel's testube exploded and my THIRD test tube has some plastic that melted unknowingly on its surface, so when i touched it, i was think what's that weird sticky thing. omgggg. chem pracs ARE CRAZY!!!

after that very traumatising incident of hair burning and etc, went with phi and ck to tp. we are the best money conservers! ahhaa, from macs (~$5) to ban mian ($2.50) to waffle ($1.30) hahah so we only spent 1.30 on food and then we went to popular to get stuff and ya. haha, we're going to save up and splurge one day on those really nice copic markers in kino! haahha. yeaps, then took the train back AND SLEPT again. haha. luckily, i havent been sleeping in classes nowadays. lol yess. TODAY'S A SLACK DAY! harharhar >D

2006-03-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

ha, i'm surprised at how i hold on to everything around me and just refused to let things go even when they're supposed to. is that called sentimental? or just plain obstinate? or just..... i don't know.

that aside, i've only got SS left. bahh. it took me one whole afternoon to get my letter writing done as well as my comprehension. sad case la. i feel as though the hw i did this afternoon were just overdued work and it took me another weekend to complete it.

i don't feel like returning to school just as yet =(((( my week was spent away so fast without my realising. it felt like a really short weekend. bah. i didnt even rest and prepared for term 2, not to mention revision of work. hoow pathetic carmen. how pathetic.

and as i sit in front of the computer again, i dont feel like doing anymore work. ahhh, i think the computer is the cause of my lacking concentration. hahaha. oh wells. i still love it anyway =DD it's my only method of reaching out to friends i don't see everyday!

oh wells, i guess i better get SS over and done with asap, so that i can watch my tv programme! hahaha little incentives makes me more than happy =))

2006-03-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

i can't concentrate.
i'm not focussed.
i've got things up my mind
i can't settle down.
i'm still thinking of FRS!
i'm frightened by the large number of hw.
i dont feel like doing any work
i'm tired.
i'm dreading school (but i miss my fourseven-ers!)
i'm dreading the start of term 2
i'm sleepy and hungry! omg
i'm stressed
i'm low on motivation and discipline
i'm dying of exam stress

BAH!

oh god, how am i suppose to get on with my work!? i cant seem to clear my mind. i'm still
trapped in my own world and my own thinking. i'm going mad by the second. the stress level ain't lowering a single bit. and i feel i'm getting lost, oh wait, i am already lost. oh my god.

2006-03-17T19:09:00.000+08:00

ahh FRS is over for me. i am no longer eligible to enter for this competition or any other as a participant from IJ already (perhaps alumni! =)). kinda saddens me. oh wells. i'd really miss all the times i've spent working on all the comp since sec 1 till sec 4. it was nice and really worth reminiscing sometimes. hahaha. the bitching the gossips and all the fun that we share secretly/openly, behind the blue doors of our room back in thomson, and behind those computer screens where we msn one another =D the times when we all go mad and are just stressed up and do all kinds of wacky stuff to cheer each other on, is no longer going to be repeated. bah, i'm already dreading my graduation. bah. i think all the previous sec 4s would have felt it. the attached feeling we have to our school and this passion for the cca and robotics itself. i wouldnt want to leave. being in IJ for like almost 10 years already, i seriously don't wanna leave and ya, i'd rather stay on in that warm atmosphere forever. ha, but nothing lasts forever. it's how long we prolong it.

that aside, i'm happy for the fact we won 2 awards and we only had a team!! sooo... yay! haha. three cheers for IJ LIVEWIRE! thank you all those that came down and supported and yesss everyone involved! hurhur rockon ppl!! =D MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER END!!! LOL

okok, there's an urgent need to start on my hw. bahh. school's reopening in less than 3 days time. and my hw is not half way done. so ya. carmen's so dead. oh man. how dreaded, and mid years are less than 2 months to go. and prelims and bah O's?! oh man. school is so screwed. cant wait for the June hols to come and then i can really go PEAKING. yess. study time. x)) and all that extensive revision will come in. sec 4s eh?

eeyer dont feel like going on already. anyways, before ending off, just want to wish my 2 darling juniors, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIEEEEENEEEEE AND ZONG LING!

2006-03-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

geog trail was FUN FUN FUN! hahaha i really wanted to pon chem prac today. had to wake up at like 6am!!??!?! just to get to school. and see kei and wanyu arent in Singapore to meet me. so ya. if it wasnt for the geog trail i DOUBT i'll be in school today! oohh, FOR THE FIRST TIME, i actually understood chem prac! ok la, more or less, still got some doubts blah blah. and ya, first time the experiments was successful and the observations were accurate. xD soooo YAY for me! hahaha. then went to outram to start the ~~dreadful~~ trail.

hahah got quite lost at first but i guess we got the momemtum and walked! ahahah. quite fun! didnt expect it to be fun! ahahaah. i guess it's the people la! i was quite high, and there was just the mood? hurhur. next time got this kinda thing must go with them again! x)))

anyways, was REALLY QUITE TIRED when i got home, i think my feet has blisters. xD and did hw and yay i finished one! so three more to go! there's only maths, phys, el and a/cs! shouldnt be too much of a problem.

oohh FRS day 0 tmr. i hope that IJ does well this year, in fact it's already my final time joining with IJians. so ya. LET'S ALL PRAY THAT THE ROBOT WORKS WELL AND ALL GOES WELL AND WE DO WELL! =D

2006-03-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

oh yay! it's the march holidays! term 1 has ended and oh we're ~~closer to o's now~~. i simply refuse to admit that fact. bahhh. i'm going to be living in self denial for that. hur that aside, there's so much hw! i cant seem to get started anywhere cos i just tired myself out from writitng the reports and yay i'm finally done (ELATION!) =D

oohh ppl, if you're free, and feel like going out to rest your brains from studying and doing too much work, COME DOWN TO SINGAPORE SCIENCE CENTRE FROM 15 - 17 MARCH, ANYTIME FROM 10AM TO 4PM!!! if you're lost or something, just give me a call and i'll bring you there!!! PLEASE SUPPORT THE ROBOTICS GIRLS!!!

that aside i'm going to read the papers and do some hw! TATA!

2006-03-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

i feel as though i'm losing my mind these days. for a moment during last weekend, i felt as though i had no control of my body's actions and movements. i felt as though my mind was no long mine, and i just didnt feel right. i felt as though my mind was out and my nerves were all entangled together. ah, signs of stress.

i feel like giving up but i know that this is NOT the right way to deal with problems. i'm experiencing the lowest morale of all times and everything just don't seem to go right. they seem to be opposing my every wish. from academically to non academically, i feel soooo downright stupid. first of all, i have a serious understanding problem, i dont seem to get the facts taught in class. secondly, i'm so slow in getting concepts registered into my head. thirdly, my engrish is sooo bad i can practically see a F9 on my results slip next year, which will then definitely doom my entire everything. ahh. i cant seem to find my normal self anymore. i cant even ~~laugh properly~~ now. everything is going haywire.

that aside, it's the high rush period now, where everyone is squeezing time out just to rush everything by next Tuesday. exactly one week from now. bah, and i'm not spared from this mad rush either. bah.

on a lighter note, i'm looking forward to our pyjamas party! haha =)
-i feel like sleeping to eternity.....

2006-03-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

haha, it's FRIDAY again! LOL. i'm pretty happy about it :) however, that just brings me to the fact that time is running real fast. and ya, the much awaited March hols are coming. HOWEVER, that just means that frs is like coming and I really need to get my work going. bahh. so sian.

that aside, i'm such a happy child in school :D i feel so silly putting on a filippino accent, but it's just so hilarious, right MAM? x)) i need to stay happy! and keep my energy running this high till exams are over. hohoho. what an effort.

hee. i think this week was pretty alright. except some occasional hiccups. oohh i need to buy my batteries soon. my mp3 player needs its batteries!!! i need some music to accompany my long rides home. i'm so tired.

2006-02-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

i feel oh so dead. yes. dead. ughh. zomg, i feel as thought i've fallen into a bottomless pit. somehow or another, i feel that it isnt as bad as i think it's going to be. cos there's going to be ropes for me cling on to.

yess that aside, school today was so crap! i hate mondays la. and today we had like 3 tests in a row?! first we had chem, ok no test, but she never fails to irritate me. bahh. i'm so going to fail my science la. my one and only science. but then again, i cant wait for my tuition to commence this weekend. =) that should save me quiet a bit. then we had erm, math test on LOCI! it's supposed to be very easy, very erm easy to understanding and very easy to draw. and omg, the test was so difficult la! i had to gasak my way through. i better pass. then we went for SS for ANOTHER test. omg. these tests arent getting the better out of me. anyways, it was a hard one, on something and something. (not supposed to say it, cos other classes havent done the tests yet!) yess. but aiyah, almost died doing it as well. ok ya, then had recess. i fast-ed for nothing T_T she didnt bring the machine! she said we needed to fast, so i went to do so, and i got myself hungry for nothing -____-;;;;; then had chinese, which was another test! it's compo writing, wasnt so bad afterall, i hope i did well, first time i wrote so long. yes.. then had a/cs. it was well ok, the usual, mrs siau's lesson are like the best! i totally love mrs siau!

then we had chem prac, after a really weird and useless extra geog period. yess. anyways, went down to the canteen, bought something and rushed up. chem is usually the prac i enjoy doing most cos it's very interactive. but aiyah, i get so fed up when i dont get the correct observation and it really clashes with your contextual knowledge? yes, managed to get past it anyways. aiyah! i failed to get my gold! i'm so sad la! i was hoping i could get some really pretty glittery gold at the end, but oh wells. none.

then tarcia, phi, ck and i went down to TP. i think tarcia's pretty amused with me and my crack lame jokes. hurhur. like GUYLIAN and GIRLBENG XD hahaha. LAUGHTARCIALAUGH!
hahah anyways, that aside, i bought something for my mortal! i feel so guilty la, i mean everyone's receiving something from their angel, and my poor mortal hasnt gotten anything for me yet. hahah really sorry about that. IT'S OK! yours in on the way!!! heard that we'll be changing mortals and angels every one term, so there really isnt much time for me to get more stuff for my dear mortal! i'll work harder!! hurhur. got to do stuff again. school's such a pattern.

2006-02-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

this is the first saturday i felt that it has been so useful :) i actually STUDIED! and revised and did my notes and all! cos there's no hw (first time since school reopened) this weekend except for chem, i was doing notes and revising! LOL. i need to make this constant and improve my discipline! will continue doing so tmr at the same time do my reports etc.

anyways, it doesnt sound new, but i'm sick again. dammit la, this is the second time of the month i'm falling sick! i woke up with a really low and hoarse voice. i felt it coming last night already, didnt expect it to worsen this morning. oh wells. time's flying.

i just want to clear up some bad air before anything deteriorates and the relationships sours, cos i dont wish to work with a soured relationship person. anyway, i'm sorry for what happened last night but it was majorly a misunderstanding. you defintely do not have the evidence that i asked her to picked up the phone. you dont even know where my phone was being placed. so please do not make sweeping statements because you do not have the evidence. secondly, when i declined the invitation nicely, i meant it quite seriously, and if you didnt notice, it's my first time being so obstinate in my answers. i'm not obliged to tell you the reasons, but everything i do, comes with a reason. thirdly, i'm not as fortunate and blessed as you to have good brains, so much that you do not have to devote as much time as me into your studies. i also do not have the luxury of having transport provided wherever i may be going all the time, i take the public transport which eats up a lot of time. so there, believe it or not, everything i said above it the truth and i really just wanted to flatten things out and not let it affect our working relationships.

2006-02-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

OK YES! first things first! it's FRIDAY! omg i'm so happy la, i even added nice colours to it! EXCLAIMS! JUMPS FOR JOY!! it's the time of the week when i can finally rest a bit and take a really short 2 day break from school to CATCH UP with my homework and tests and notes and blah blah. sometimes, i imagine my books, notes, tests revisions chanting to me, "catch me if you can" omg.. i must have been like too stress or i'm just hallucinating already. haha. terrible terrible. pre exam stress is catching up to me. i find myself laughing less and less each day. oh wells. PHOENIX! SEE KEI!!! MAKE ME LAUGH!!! =D lol. tickle me whatever! it's therapatic for me to laugh xD

anyways, there's like so many tests next week. ah wells, i think it's supposed to be very common already. but i just havent gotten used to it. i remind myself again that exams are nearing because i saw phoenix carrying that GCE N & O Level registration booklet around. the one that tells you how much you needa pay for your subj combi. and ya, my combi is worth $328. and government has already absorbed the GST, so that amount is already without GST. then i called my mother to tell her about it, and she was like "so much!? last time we take exam FREE one" well mummy, last time policemen wear shorts, now they wear pants =) so ya, she asked about my studies and revision and all, and she warned me again that if i dont do well, the consequences is unbearable. yes mummy, i'm aware. ohwells. i'm already very shacked catching up with homework. it's only the weekends that help me catch up on revisions. pouts.

anyways, was just looking at the SAC photos. haha. reminds myself of the time just spent last week. i feel as though i've grown so much over time. although, i'm physically so short, my mental state feels so enriched and mature. ~~even though my actions are very cartoon and animated~~ haha, looking at my toenail reminds me of the hilarious scene while i was trying to protect the cardboxes xD and the pictures of people laughing on the floor, walking sideways, hitting the benches, are all just so memorable forever. hurhurhur. that just makes me re-emphasize that 4/7 is the best man! i'll defintely miss this class when i graduate.

anyways, i'm so tired. i'm going to turn in soon!

2006-02-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

well, self awareness camp was really great, fantastic, just wonderful la. seriously, i've learnt more about everyone in the class, understanding their ups and downs and empathising with them. it really felt and mean so much. there's never an end to discovering more about each other as we grow up each day. haha. i really really do love 4/7 '06!! i think they simply just rock la. without that special someone in class, it'd be so different. yeaps. like father said, we're going to have only about 32 weeks more before our exam starts, so i think these last 32 weeks are the most special and meaningful as they are also the last to my IJ chapter. yea. that aside, i had a lot of fun! :DD snacking in the middle of the night (not my usual thing to do) and writing notes to everyone in class! yesss. first time la, teachers included, quite an accomplishment. haha. accept the last few, handwriting slightly messier, cos ya, falling asleep already. xD
and oh, games was oh so fun! seeing everyone spinning around makes me giddy too. i really wanted to play, but my toe nail already chipped off, play somemore, later toe also fall out. hurhur. yea. no doubt the fatigue experienced, it was worth it and memorable.

2006-02-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

thank god i'm feeling better today after more than ten hours or more of sleep so i'll be more than ready for the camp tmr! =D i'm such a pig. i LOVE to sleep!! i cant emphasize that any further! have i ever told you how therapatic sleep is? sleeping through the entire night, without having to wake up to do whatever or get awoken because of the noise caused by the speeding vehicles downstairs is just oh so wonderful. hahah how i wish i can have that everyday.

so today, i was a very good girl. i was fighting with my inner self if i should go for tuition today. because, if i dont go today, it's either i go on saturday after the camp, or next wed and thurs consecutively. or even, go on thursday OR wednesday and have a 4 hour session there which i think i will just die on the spot. i thought of these 3 options but i convinced myself that on saturday, i'll be tired/lazy and it'll be too rush to go down for tuition. and next week, i probably might have things cropping up last minute or i may just run low in momentum. yea. so in the end, i went to bathe and went for tuition! hahaha. so 乖. hahaha xD

now i'm procrastinating my packing for the camp tmr. ahh. i'm such a big time procrastinator! i bet my auntie will be nagging later. but heck la, i already know the outcome, so just a while more la. after all, i wont be able to touch the comp for more than 24 hours after i log out later. so there. must make full use of my time left! HAHAH sounds like i'm leaving for eternity. but aiya, i'm just too attached to the computer. :D ahh feeling so sian suddenly. okok it's ranting time again.

STOP copying me (if only i have a copyright to every thing i own - you'll be sued big time alright), you stupid piece of shit. rahhh. is it very fun to imitate someone??? i find no fun in doing so you know. i dont understand what's so nice to keep copying me cos it's getting on my nerves already! you are like so damn bloody young to even don what i have or wear! so stop your annoying pretence in front of me. arghs. i cant take it anymore already! you're such a pain. arghs. dont act cute when you're not. omg.. i cant stand you anymore.

2006-02-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

rahh. havent been blogging for a week plus already. i've been so busy and tied down with work. so many things happened over the week.
most memorable would be the runway or another dance cum drama concert by NUS. zomg, NUS's theatre arts students are so cool man. seriously, their dance is just so va-va-voom! makes me wanna dance with them, but abooden noooo la. then the drama was real nice la. K inc and the most scandalous event of the year. hurhur. i wouldnt mind paying more than i paid for such a wonderful performance, and i would be more than glad to return next year to watch the performance again =D hahaha. it has inspired me to take on dancing lessons! hahah. just as a recreational activity, after all, i had the interest in it since sec 1. x) ahh that reminds me of my ever dying passion/interest in piano! tugs at wanyu's incessantly =) HAHAHA

the 2 day weekend seemed so short. T_T i'm literally crying my hearts out for a long and extended holiday! or really, just let me rest and catch up first! i'm really lagging. the two day, out of one was spent outdoors and etc, i only have one left to do my homework only. i need more than that to revise, write my notes, and catch up on the concepts i dont understand. sigh, i brought home my physics and history textbooks to study, and i couldnt. it's the lack of drive and discipline in me, and when i really start studying, time's up. ahh. i need more stamina to run this long race where the finishing line is the O Levels.
talking about O's, results were just released last week. and our school did exceptional well this year. even better than the year of the dragon that was what really shocked me. i mean that year of the dragon, the seniors i've known were all like omgsosmart. and last year's batch did even better. hoho. stress on us man. and cos of that, we get an off tomorrow! so when i go back on friday, it's the self awareness camp already! yeaps. and what a timely coincidence, i'm like hit with inflammed throat and runny nose.. yesss no surprise, but of all times now!? ive been sick 3 times since we moved back to toa payoh. either the dust in school, or just my weak immune system or there's a deadly virus going around. pouts. i think it's all three.
mrs khoo was such a concerned teacher! hahaa. she actually gave me her number just so i can contact her in case anything happens on my way home alone. ahaha no doubt, 4/7 loves you! <33

hahaha. i'm feeling so moody. everyone around me must be thinking "why carmen today so quiet?" cos usually i'm so hyper and noisy and talkative. but laalalaa, today i was just sleeping at any chance i get and stonning away my time in school. so sian. 3 tests in a row today. ahh. i got to learn to keep up. cos i'm losing the momentum soon. ahh. must persevere! SINGLE DIGIT!!!

2006-02-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

hahah everything's back to normal, guess blogpsot was down or something it freaked me out cos how can I, the owner of my blog, be FORBIDDEN TO ACCESS MY OWN SITE!? yess the word here is forbidden. it's very weird la, it just like barring you from entering YOUR OWN house. yaa. same scenario. just that if that were to ever happen, i think it's when i left my house keys somewhere or you got locked out. xD

anyways, school's pretty tiring these weeks. guess it's the uprising of tension and stress already. i feel worried! i'm not ready for O's. anddd, this fri o's results for 2005 will be out. then we'll know the targets and most importantly the cut off points. harhar. excitment. anyways, ya, i need to feel studious and hardworking! c'mon! then i can get started with that feel to work >D carmen's just plain weird la. ok ya.

i cant get enough of tests man. feels like one after another every week. that aside, i cant wait for SAC (self awareness camp)! hhaha hope it'll be fun. and yea phi's bro wedding which i'm excited about, but i'll have to wake up like damn early to go. feeling lazy but still must pull myself there. muahahahaa.

mondays are like so tiring. i hate mondays. it's the start of the week, and i usually feel very very very very tired waking up so early when the previous two days are like happily sleeping till the sun is in mid sky. yess. so ya, had like two period of chem, and i tell you, mrs tay is so fast! i wish she would slow down. i cant catch, especially when i don't get a shit about what she's teaching. and i have ask eunice chye and see kei to explain and blah when she's like 2 qns in front of me, and all i do is to copy. i'm not learning nor getting facts in! arghs. then we had emaths. mrs khoo's nice enough to actually sacrifice her math period (math periods, in my opinion, are very important) to get the class together to settle the pullover. yeaa settled and all, and we hurriedly left for SS. mondays are just so high tension and fast paced. haiya, singapore schools. SS arrangements are weird. it's like U shaped. xD but quite different from the usual rows, it just means it's diffiicult to give out stuff LOL. then was recess and all and chinese. alamak. everyday do compo. sian. then i realised that my sasuke bookmark is gone -_-;;; see kei and wan yu la! in cahoots one. >( make me so worried, i even wanted to leave chinese class, leaving my compo aside to run to the places i've been for the first half of the day to search for my bookmark (that includes, hall, SS class, maths class and chem class - all in different locations and levels). yesss. it's just a bookmark, why the big fuss? it's the sentimental value, not the monetary value. it's ok 50 cents mind you. i can buy many! but that bookmark is just special! hmm yea. point said. yeaa then had a/cs test. and ya couldnt balance as usual. but heck. i went to sleep. joyce's reaction very funny,
joyce: "can yours balance?"
carmen: "nooooo.. "
joyce:" BUT I SAW YOU SLEEPING!"
LOL! >D obviously she doesnt know my weird style of being able to doze off anytime and anywhere. i sit right in front of teacher also can sleep. hahaha. oh wells. havent been sleeping much these days! sec 4, sleep what, later my marks also sleep away. hurhurhur. anyways, went for phys pract. somehow, i forgot how to do already and it was just weird, i found the instructions not clear and i couldnt get it. rahh. major understanding problem. so redoed and ya. then left to meet phoenix.

then we found out that ARC got featured in straits times IN. hmm. i must get hold of it. =D then we went looking for my comb and i couldnt find it even in bukit batok. =((( pouts. anyways, had some food and talked and LAUGH like mad agan. I LOVE TRIO! xD i'm so hyped up with them most of the time. xD hurhur. anyways. i'm going to sleep. i'm feeling the fatigue already.

2006-02-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

zomg, i have no idea why both I.E and mozilla says i'm forbidden to view my OWN blog! wtf?! i may be blogging here right now but i cant see it when i post it cos they say i'm FORBIDDEN?! what the hell man. i'm so annoyed.

and. i have not much of a mood to study accounts. i dunno why, but i just dont feel like. ugh, i hate sec 4. i've finished my homework except summary. ahh. down with English man. i cant wait to get o levels over and done with, but, wth i'm not even ready for it. i have so many sec 3 topics that i havent even comprehend fully. i feel so dead. so dead. rahh. i feel as though i'm racing against time with so many things to do but dunno which to start first. yaaa that kind of feeling. -pouts- rahhh, i can literally pull my hair out. OH WAIT, no wonder this morning when i was combing my hair, so many were off my head already. -___-;;; rahh

2006-01-29T22:02:00.001+08:00

HAPPY

CHINESE

NEW

YEAR!

I hope that everyone would have a good year ahead and that all will be healthy, peaceful, HAPPY, and wealthy =) ALL THE BEST EVERYONE!

-stop being a fagging copycat rawr

2006-01-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

i particularly love this afternoon =) i'm enjoying it right now X)) i like the peace and the quietness. guess i havent had a quiet and calm surrounding for a long time, that i'm so satisfied with what i have now. the only thing i've got up in my head now is my homework for the weekend which i'll most probably start doing in a while, harhar i dont wanna owe any homework for the new year, so must clear everything up by tomorrow.

anyways, went to school today, was dead tired, but i still met see kei at a later time today. hurhur. had mass and celebration and all then met nat! hoho i loveeee nat! she got me SASUKE keychain! and the logo of naruto keychain!! hohoho MUCH LOVE! <3 then we went to ya kun, and on the way there, she was like "is that ms low?" and ya spot on, it was her. like wow, nat can recgonise people from the back?! me?! i anyhow recgonise people and anyhow NAME them. XD wahahaha. so much for remembering everyone i know. xDDD hahahah. that's the most maluating thing of all la. anyhow anyhow, that just shows how good my memory is at remembering faces.

2006-01-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

i hate to say this, but why do parents always favour one of their child? it causes unrest between the siblings because they are constantly fighting for their parent's attention or rather, fighting to get their way when they know either will win when they received the backing from the parent. rah. gibberish. i cannot take it anymore. i cannot stand injustices outside, what's more at home. therefore, i urged the losing one to fight for her rights and stand firm to what she wants or believe in. BUT, of course the one with the backing (i call her the evil one) will obivously win lah. that really makes me damn damn damn fed up. and i hate it when the mother goes "she's your only sister! give in a bit also cannot is it?!" omg. seriously, the mother really needs to analyse the situation before saying that sentence and put herself in the shoes of both her children. because, just that one sentence will cause a chain of statements that are not pleasing to both mother and child, and it has sent the poor girl leaving the room with tears flowing like a rampant waterfall. rah. i'm seriously venting on what has been kept inside me for over a year. i do not have siblings (thank god), i'm just stating what has been going on for like the entire one year i've been staying at my auntie's house. i've witnessed how the younger one constantly receive the backing from her mother, making me feel very damn annoyed with both of them. it has come to a point when carmen cannot tolerate this anymore. the younger one is becoming so insolent and disrespectful, she can call her dad by the name PLUS surname. wow. children these days, plus the parents. (some only la) rah. and having received education from an IJ school for 10 years running, i appreciate POLITENESS and RESPECT A LOT. get some proper teaching done man, because such things can only be taught and raised more effectively at HOME. or just send her to an IJ school (nearest bukit timah) to get what she really needs =) seriously, something needs to be done before it gets out of hand. stop the biasness. spare the rod and harm the child.

lalalaalalala. enough of that i suppose. i'm in no position to see it worsen or improve since i'm moving out soon i think. i only hope that the next time i come back for a visit, things will improve. hurr. anyways, i cant wait for CNY!! lol! but oh man, there's like so much homework to be completed over the weekend. T_T anyways, i aim to complete all by saturday before i go for my reunion dinner. hohoho. school is really crazy nowadays, homeworks and tests are like killing everyone softly. lalalala. i'm so tired these days, i hardly get enough sleep even though i turn in at 10pm after the love conceirge show. hahaha i LOVE that show. it's really nice. nice plot, fitting actresses and actors. lalala. it's coming to an end though. rah no more entertainning keep ups. oh wells. i'm tired already. i'm going to prepare for my tv show! x)

2006-01-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

hoho havent blogged in a week. been caught up with work and yada yada. RIGHHT MAN! i'm sure! damn lazy to type about the whole day's happenings and it may not be so interesting to blog everyday about the same things. hur xD haha. so ya. interesting things do happen once in a while though. haha. today my great friend, ivena, spilled BUTTER on me! heehooohumm. wooow. i was playing with the ice using the straw.. then it slipped off the straw and it glided towards her. and she just had to use my empty cup of corn with liquid butter to get the ice away from her. HOHO. nice one ivena. and so, i got oily butter on me the whole day. wahahaha X)) next time, use your FINGER! =D then, during physics prac, my plasticine slipped off my hand and landed into see kei's beaker, so ya, water splashed and all and her paper was semi wet, then i went to try on wanyu, then that woman had to do it on me TOO, just that exaggerate a bit, then ya, my paper became wetter than theirs! rahhh. so much for being mischievious. they call it retribution. wooow. so fast ah?? either than that, nothing much really happened in school. lessons and all. oohh. ms tan spoke to my class for 2 whole periods. hahah i'm glad she took away 2 SS periods though! =DDDD heehee. so she spoke about target settings for O's and some feedback on the canteen food and student's lounge. looks like, i'm going to have to work damn hard for O's. let's try a 17 pts first for mid years =)

lalalala. i'm in the mood for CNY already! hahha. i'm thinking of the ang baos babeh! $_$!!! xDDD that's my only income for the entire year. hahahhaa. yess. and i just realised that my new clothes are majority white! and they say, white and black are colours of mourning and shouldnt be worn during CNY. aww man. i'm not too pleased with that. =((( never mind la. i hope and i pray that i'll still be a happy go lucky and bubbly and cheerful girl for the entire year. hoho. toppped with good health and good results and oh yes, how could i forget my favourite. MONEY too! heehee.

anyways, just want to thank see kei for helping me buy the black dunno what it's called la. ya. thanks, it fits me well. and then, thanks to cecilia for helping me print my hist notes! hoho. she was complaining i never thanked her =(

-will history repeat itself again?-

2006-01-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

hoho. i've had a great time today =) even though i'm i'm fking tired. as in seriously, i've been waking up at 5am daily. and today, i only woke up an hours later. =(( the troubles of staying far. haiz, it's ok, i'll be back in TP in no time. anyways, went to school today with see kei for cca orientation. and it was quite fun la. watched performances etc. then we had savie being in the distorted weebot xD i had a go in it too, but it was damn hot and very itchy and it's like everyone who went in, perspire like mad when they come out. xD and i was no exception either XDD so we screamed and shouted, all in the hopes for higher recruitment rate. response wasn't too bad, a few hopefuls.

so anyways, after that, phoenix, see kei and i went to J8 with nat SPECIALLY for yoshi's gyoza, and then, IT'S NOT IN STOCK TODAY! woooow -______-;;;;; and we just settled for the normal meals la. then see kei is the ultimate: she haven't started eating yet, she SPILLED the whole bowl of soup -___-, phoenix and i was like -___-;;;; but it was too usual and too often for us to make much expression so we just carried on eating. xD then we split up and left for tuition, home, piano, town.

then on the way to tuition, i saw tan wilkie, then i was like tugging at nat and saying tan wilkie! tan wilkie! for a moment i thought i saw the wrong person again but luckily they started greeting each other so phew! haha xD cos at J8, i saw this person who looked like our senior, Melissa Wong, then i started waving -___________-;;; omg.... and it wasnt her........ and there was once, when i was a sec 1, i screamed for my senior's name in popular, and she turned around, and she said "that's not my name -__________-" (i dunno why she turned around though it's not her name o__o????) omggggggggggggg. all the malu things i've done in my life is like UNCOUNTABLE xDDDDDD no doubt there's more la. hahaha. so ya ok. went for tuition.

and my tuition teacher just had to give me number patterns. when i was just complaining about it in yoshi -__-;; next time must really mind my words. xDDDD i spent 2 hours doing 8 qns, out of which the final 2 i managed to do by my own! xDDD hohoho accomplishment! xDDD then after that left for town.

met phoenix, her mum and see kei. =DD seriously, i LOVE phoenix's parents, if only mine was a quarter like them, i'll be more than glad. i want a change. anyways, walked around and i bought this really nice white off shoulder la, then i was quite shocked at my less-than-5min buy. this is usually NOT my style. omg. hmm but ya, see kei kept saying : "just accept it la! cannot refund already!" hahaahahaha. oh wells. then went to walk around tangs, and went to eat. thanks! to phi's mother for treating us =DD then we walked over to centrepoint. then we walk again and dunno why phoenix suddenly want to wear qibao for CNY -__- madness. then we walked and talked and LAUGHED A LOT HOHOHOHO. xDDDDDD then went to have dinner with her dad then talked and laughed and became damn high la. hahahah. all in all, i LOVE phi's parents. they're such nice and amiable people. xDD then we were like the noiseiest group wherever we went because of my very hysterical and LOUD laughther xDDD then i went home.

okokok. i'm going to RANT. so ya. read at your own risk. (highly not recommended =O)

my oh so fking mother is really pissing the hell out of me. she's like only giving me 60 bucks for allowance this month and i'm really feeling very fucked up. seriously, she claims that i've gone over the budget and my phone bills is like plunging up and down and she says i've spent too much. like wth. people spent $10 a day, i get $60 a month?! and my P5 godsister receives $7 a day, $35 a week and that means $140 a month! wtf. i used to had $120 then it was reduced to $100, and now i'm in sec 4, and she's only giving me 60!? like omfg. screw you. at first, i thought i could meet her to get some money, cos she wanted to trade in my phone for a cheaper one, then i was like can we go down and take a look tmr and see what kind of phone it is, before changing another one. then after that she called me again and said that only phones with the lifetime of less than 6 month can apply for the trade in, but mine's like over a year already. so cannot already la. then i asked if she's meeting me for anything, and she said no, then i was like i need money! and she went on and on about how and why she's not giving me anymore for the rest of the month. and the best was, she never gave me ample time to save and ya prepare for my "rainy" day! like wtf. seriously, screwed! screw you. i'm so bloody annoyed with you. i'm only 16 yet i have to be on a constant worry state for money. like wth. i seriously am going to work my way out in the future for a high end life. i swear. it's not like i want to be stingy sometimes, i have to scrimp cos of my damned mother. condemned you are. i have had enough. when my life is in my own control, i will not bother a thing about what you freaking hell want to do. GET A LIFE SUCKER!

2006-01-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

hoho. it's great that today's a holiday, cos obviously i havent got used to the daily schooling from the sudden stop of the ultra long 2 months break we had last year =( at least can catch more sleep. =DD hahha. anyways, ya was reading phoenix's blog la, then I CANNOT TAKE IT! SHE MIX UP EVERYTHING WE SAID YESTERDAY DURING LUNCH!! (i wonder what's on her mind man. x)) yes yes no doubt it was a comical (very, in fact) conversation, she got the points and facts wrong la! -__________-;;; and i cannot take it, and she too lazy to change it, so i shall do the honours, HA! (not like it's very honourable la but still).. ok ya quotes will be taken from her blog,

point number one, " she was crazy about this campus superstar guy" , it's not CAMPUS superstar guy, it's PROJECT!! and project is long over so ya, get it, it's not CAMPUS. i just finished watching the repeat telecast of CAMPUS superstar and the guys in the show is like ........................... (fill in the blank yourself). the ij katong one not bad. hohoho. do IJ schools proud.

point number two, "carmen was going on about how she might want to join, then we were like "but its in chinese!?!" then she went, can rap in chinese wad." i didnt say that i want to join in, hahaha i intended to rope in see kei and phoenix to join the upcoming super band! hahahaha. trio wad. the more the merrier. and i wouldnt have the guts to go alone anyways =)

point number three, "she wanted to rap the chinese nursery 'three lil mice' " OMG PHOENIX, IT"S NOT THREE LITTLE MICE, it's THREE TIGERS!!! omggg.. tigers and mice BIIGGG difference ok! you know the san zhi lao hu pao de kuai then blah blah blah. then one no tail, one no eye, then isnt it very weird?? that nursery rhyme!! hahaha ya. and the part which we anyhow create for them is damn funny. xDDD we created one which, never brush teeth, never wash feet and never bathe. =DDDDDDDDD hahahaha!

LOL!! yes yes, that's all. that's the results of us having lunch, after a very tired day in school, at the kopitiam outside school. because of the overworked brains which we had after school, i started thinking up of rather crappy things which made us unable to eat properly xDDDD hahha LAUGH TOO MUCH XD

hoho yesterday was a pretty tired day though. stayed in school till quite late for the parents' night. was mobile usher so was quite fun. apparently i fell cos the damn floors were too slippery -__-;; malu only. anyways, had fun bringing guests to the AVA room. haha. and the best part was the food la. omg. the auntie-ness and kiasuness of the inner us was surfaced LOL. hahaa. BUT positive light is: we TRY not to waste food ok! so it was a rather positive act??????? >DDD heh. so i went home with zong in her mother's car. thanks! without zong and her mum, i wouldnt have been able to get home from school or vice versa for a few trips already. HEH xD

i actually got down to my hw. xDDDD homg first time, i shall aspire to be dilligent and hardworking this year. and i actually told see kei that i'm going to get pass O levels!!! i must!!! I'LL MAKE MY WAY PASS YOU, DAMN O LEVELS, AND GET INTO MY JC!!!!! NYAH NYAH NYAH >DDD

2006-01-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

wahhh wanted to go offline already. then phoenix asked me to stay and look at her blog at 10. which is ten mins from now. ohh sians. i didnt know so i just decided to blog la. xD today's like damn boring, very shiet and very sian. woke up and went for tuition, and my tuition teacher gave me cedar's sec 4 prelims paper 1 to do. -______-;;; like what the hell. i havent started on sec 4 work! and the best part was i had very little confidence in myself (always) when i do maths papers. unless it's from some weird school that have little reputation then maybe not so stressed cos they're usually easier. hmm yea. so managed to complete it and all. with some blanks of course. and maybe cos i just woke up and all, i couldnt think of ways to create my equation to solve the qns. so i stone and stare at one qns maybe for 5 mins. ahh okok enough of maths. oh my, this reminds me that i have tests coming up and i havent studied for it. -______________________-;;; and i didnt get to revise much during the holidays. OOHHHHHHHHH arghs. omg school suck =((((

yes then i went back to school for the open house. then my mother came left with her. and had lunch at like 3 plus coming 4, and till now, i'm not feeling hungry -_____________-;;; late lunches are bad la. anyways, today i'm feeling so sian, moodless and unenthusiastic. rah rah. i need something to perk me up x(((( oh god i hate school. the thought of tests discourage me to get off the comp and open the school diary to check what tests i have. and talking about school diary, are we really sticking to the kNOw drugs one?????? it's like so hmmm.. nvm... weird la! wth! i expected something our school crest in front! rahhhh. if it's like that, i'm thinking of getting one by myself. -____-;;;;;;; oh man i'm so not looking forward to monday. =(((((

anyways, i really love this song, testify to love that phoenix recommend me. =) it's really nice =D

lyrics:
All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart will speak what love has done

feel my tension

2006-01-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

anyways, ya, i'll make a post before i go to bathe. that should be enough time for my food to be "digested" then i can go bathe then my tummy won't have air going in and all that. YAA the chinese style..

anyways, i woke up today still feeling very drowsy cos of the pill i took last night for my damn flu which was still working its effects on me. and when i got to school, i was like stonning for the entire day. poor see kei kept complaining i was stoning and quiet and no one talking to her. hurhur. AND YOU PPL COMPLAIN I'M NOISY WHEN I'M WELL! -___________-;;; rahh. ok ya. so this whole day is like just walking around the school. from periods to periods. and just when i think i can sleep and rest a bit, the damn bell rings we have to go for class. that happened in chinese la! when xie lao shi tells us that prelims for CL is in mid april and O level chinese is in may! T_T *criesss* yess i fell asleep after that, then cecilia woke me up to get ready for geog -_____-;;;; and it's like ya, dunno why, this year's english and geog expects a lot of work from the student's side. as in like ya, sec 3 wasnt like that. see kei and i agrees that we SHOULD JUST GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH!!! so many things to do! rah!!!! omg!!! feel my stress!!! i'm very sure i'm going to have a burst of white hair before O's. OR worse, before prelims! i can already see it coming. i can almost hear carmen screaming "DAMN LA ANOTHER STRAND OF WHITE HAIR!" waliao.. i'm supposed to be only 15!!!! HELLO!!! rah so that was for school. and after that we had arc.

ohh. thank god nat was in school today. oh come online nat! i have things to tell you! ok ya then we had arc. yea... things said things done. yess anyway those are kept among me and see kei. ok ya. AND AIYA I BROUGHT HER HP HOME BY MISTAKE! AIYOOOO how could i! so damn forgetful. AIYA, I'M FROM STONE AGE LA! my memory arh! rahh today is oh so pissafying! and my flu is like not getting any better lor. wah liao. at least if i'm feeling better, it wouldnt be so bad. rah. i would be more hyped up. >< anyways, i'm like stressing for o's already. i freaking need to get into a JC la dammit! and the points needed is like rahhhh. i better get in or i'll kill myself T_T

2006-01-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

wahhh. so damn fking sian. my flu's back. seriously, i'm so rahhh about it. like how many days already, it's supposed to have been cured then don't know why came back again. T_T can just die la. besides not going school today, and that's the only plus point of the day, i felt so bored at home =( rahh. glad i'm going back to school tmr, but not with the damn flu la. x( and i think see kei and phoenix caught it from me already. homgggg.

2006-01-04T17:37:00.000+08:00

hahah today's kinda eventful. anyways, to phi: AINT I INFECTIOUS?!?!?! HURHUR xD, anways, GET WELL SOON! yeaps. ok so today was actually orientation for the sec 1s and 2s sooo, the upper sec need not come back to school, but i did anyways for unpacking of arc rm :) so ya, met see kei and went to school together. and she forgot to bring the key for the locker. HA! so she had to buy me a lock to put our books inside when we get to school. we actually brought our friday's timetable books to school, so that friday, our bags wont be so heavy. muahaha. so yea. packed and all and i finally see JULIENNEEE!! hahaha! she was like CARRRMEEEEEEENNN!!! =D

ok so afterwards, see kei, hui qi, gerri and i went to MOS for lunch. we ate and talked and yada yada, laughed a lot too x)) and waited for nat at the same time. ok so ya, she ate and then we walked around. so ya when we left that place to head for our beancurd, i met Jessie!! and we saw Michelle! (our arc senior) then we bought our food and then we went up the area outside koufu to eat la. then damned those smokers (i HATE smokers) we had to move after a while cos we all just couldnt take the smell. and i think i got my flu back. rahh. and then hui qi and gerri left already. so left the three of us heading to POPULAR! we were looking at books, i seldom look at the books there in popular so ya, anyways, we were at the new age section, reading horoscope and luck books and i was of course reading my feng shui, but i didnt quite get it, they didnt like show the taboos etc thing thing. hmm yes. then we proceeded to look at manga. and! HOHO thanks to nat! i have a whole year supplies of anime and manga which could probably last me till end of O's cos i would most likely watch like mad after O's :D so ya, she bought her 2 magazines and we were sitting at steps reading and all. so when we finally left for the MRT station downstairs, see kei and i thought we saw ronald chan, so we stopped to take a closer look and guess who was in front of that "ronald chan"? STEPHINE!!!! our arc senior who went to UK!!! HOHOHO. met a lot of ppl today. so nat went to city hall, ck me and steph were just talking till we reached our respective stations. hahah. nice talking to steph. i'm sure we all miss her.

i dunno why, but i just suddenly realised how much we've changed without our seniors, and how much i missed them in the arc room, their cranky laughter and very very lame jokes and expressions. oh wells. it's really fast, i'm already sec 4, and those were the days when i just entered arc or ij in sec 1. seriously, how time flies. before long, i'll be taking my O's then i'll be off to somewhere and that'll conclude my ij episode. i wouldnt be ready to let go. i hope i would. but i doubt i will.

and see kei! you better come online to send me the song! xD crazy girl, tugging the bag with me at the steps trying to get her to take her ipod out. rah! what a torture! so maluating sumore. xD haiya, as always la.

back to school

2006-01-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

hoho. was back to school today. and surprisingly enough, people i was supposed to meet along to school wasnt late. hurhur. yes, the usual late queen (SEE KEI) was actually early enough to be waiting for me instead. MUAHAHHA. ok yes. anyways, went to meet phi in TP then wanyu at the 231 bus stop. overall was ok la, got a few new teachers taking the class. so ya. shant comment too much on that. but.. i'm going to try very hard not to sleep in class this year! afterall, it's the o's year. and my teachers are like the sleep-means-you-die kind. yes, it's going to be damn tiring going around the school, well it was much expected cos it's homeroom, but luckily, my classes are just a level away or across the blocks which are connected. =D so ya. AND AND!! canteen food is much better now!!! >D!!! ok so ya, after school, THE TRIO and hui qi went out of the school for lunch la, then couldnt really speak loudly cos the teachers were just sitting opposite table. hurhur. yess. after which went back to school talked a bit then went to the arc rm. then we sort of like idled away our time with very little things to do there and left.

ooh and PHOENIX ARH, IF YOU ARE READING, PLEASE PLAN THE ROUTES ALONG TP AND TELL US WHAT YOU WANT TO GET BEFORE SETTING OFF! OK! =) heehee. walked around the same area twice lor. -___-;;;; damn siao. yes yes. cannot blame her forgetfulness. xD we still love you anyway!!! hahaha xD

happy new year :)

2006-01-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

feeling damn shiet. rah. i mean c'mon, it's new year and I'M SICK! like wth. fever was bad enough, to top it up, i had sore throat and flu and backache on the upper back. -_-;; awful. anyway, yes, happy new year :)

lalala

2005-12-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

went back to school today to help with the upacking. the new school is KINDA big but not exactly as overwhelming as what we've been told. hmm. never mind, at least we get new facilities AND a nicer surrounding. =) so we unpacked and all. and arc rm is, omg so small. well, smaller than the previous one. but maybe it's because we have a lot of things. hurhur. yes, then after that, walked around the school, checked out a few rooms. and we realised we have like adapted a few school's system and design into it. not very nice la. like "no ij style" like that. hmm. :s then we left for something to eat.

at first we were like craving for dao hui and ice cream, then end up go ya kun and eat. then was chatting and all and Phoenix kindly taught us HOW TO EAT AN EGG properly. FIRST, must suck up the egg, then dunno what break the egg before swallowing. was hilarious, see kei and i were trying to do it professionally. -__-;;; anyways, we had it done properly. then when the bread came, i didnt realise that 2 was stacked on top of each other (because they were like so damn thin) so i ate 2 at a go, then when i finished, i was like wondering why see kei had so many left -_-;; suaku-ness please. then we talk and ate then went to walk around watsons. surprisingly, i had the urge to walk around today. so we walk, and phi had to go for her facial. then see kei and i was like left alone comparing products to products. xD left the place and went home. slept in the train. was frigging tired and i've caught the damn flu bug - just before new year, and just before school reopens, very dampening indeed. =( oh wells. anyways, am going for my before-school-reopens haircut tomorrow. so yay for that =)

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION or wishes :)!! (i hope i get to accomplish them):
1. MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE (as much MOREs) MONEYYYY $___$ MAY ALL MULA FALL ON ME *does the moneyrain dance*
2. get into a JC (omg i MUST, and when i really do, i'll be on my way to Tokyo Disneyland with my mother :D)
3. a good L1R5 (am working for a single digit)
4. MORE MORE MORE clothes and accesories!
5. good health for myself, as well as my family and friends - especially people like phoenix, the sick prone ppl -_-
6. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GROW! TALLER! PLEASE! and of course shed that flabbiness and excess fats please. ok that's a must! EXCERSISE IS GOOD FOR YA YOU KNOW!
7. be more focused in whatever i've planned to do
8. ok this is very material BUT i want my iPod! and a NEW digicam. mine's like antique la pls. *ooohh if i have the mula!*
9. DELAY DELAY DELAY gratification!

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hmm. should be that's all. i hope. hmm quite a bit to achieve eh. but nonetheless, they're goals and i shall work my way to achieving them, especially my studies. HAPPY early NEW YEAR TO ALL! =D

I'M NEW

2005-12-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

ok yes, spastic title. anyways, yes, i'm new here using blogspot after being influenced by phi -_- i think when i'm feeling less restless, i'll look up blogskins and get something decent from there =) but anyways it's HOT pink and yes though i like pink i'm not lian -_- i just cant find my fettish blue so i settle for second best :) anyways, i'll be updating here soon enough. till then!